pc: marcoh

[sacredpath]

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[boxcar]

[ Oh like a missionary almost... he just nods at the phrase 'spread her darkness', that's obviously totally normal. He's not a priest himself but he gets it's like a whole thing they do. ]

...I guess so, yeah. Coming from where you are.

[ Though, mm. Sounds like a lot of people are lowkey becoming god-haters in real time. ]

I think, if you have done wrong, it is something you will know. You did say if she is displeased, she would let you know.

[sacredpath]

She certainly would.

[immediate agreement.]

And she has before, but I was naive. I hadn't seen much of the world. When I first began traveling, I was taken by ideas that I knew didn't suit a cleric of Shar, but I thought there was no harm in dabbling in those thoughts.

[boxcar]

Curiosity is not inherently bad, I think. Though I don't mean to tread on what you believe, and how.

[ Quiet thinking. ]

There are a lot of things that. Sometimes don't feel right. They tell you it is wrong. But is it really wrong if it doesn't hurt anyone?

[sacredpath]

[well. got some news for you about sharran beliefs.]

It isn't wrong if it does hurt someone, either.

[boxcar]

How's that?

[ Tell him more. ]

[sacredpath]

Does the God you follow never want people to be hurt?

[boxcar]

... Not exactly.

[ There ain't a single god here that isn't Not Safe For Humans to some level. ]

I guess it is... about if that person deserves it.

[sacredpath]

[she nods...]

That was the problem I dealt with. I didn't want to hurt certain people, even when I knew what Lady Shar's judgment of them would be.

[boxcar]

You smite on her behalf?

[sacredpath]

If necessary.

[boxcar]

[ Wow cool. That's not his job and he would not like to have it be his job, but he nods slowly... ]

But you don't always agree.

[sacredpath]

[well.]

I used to disagree. I used to find it repulsive, sometimes. I would do as I had to do, but inside, every time, I felt no relief, no satisfaction, only pain.

But I've overcome that. I prayed for my doubts to be quieted, and they were.

[boxcar]

[ ...Now

He's generally fairly open-minded if not closed-world. But something about this seems to give him pause, his pace slowing and falling a little behind. ]

If you didn't want to, then you shouldn't have to?

[sacredpath]

[a light laugh.]

Lady Shar does not tolerate defiance. Perhaps there are gods that do, but half-hearted worship is not good enough for her.

[boxcar]

...Do you follow her out of loyalty or fear?

[sacredpath]

It was fear for a very long time. But that's why I'm so happy now. She loves me.

[boxcar]

[ GIRL YOUR STOCKHOLM GET OUTTA THERE JENNY we'll make a Selunite out of you yet. Anyway his general respect of her has suddenly turned into something kind of very concerned. Blink twice if you need help. ]

...Because you do what she tells you to.

[sacredpath]

[to be fair her brain really broke right now at the moment.]

Because I passed her tests and proved my loyalty, yes.

[boxcar]

...

I've...

[ Not something he really generally wants to admit but. It was kind of topic-adjacent before this conversation took a worrying turn. ]

...I've also killed someone I did not wish to. But I do not think that is praise-worthy.

I... think of it. Often.

[sacredpath]

[i really fucking wish she would be nice about this. we'll have to pc about this again later when her brain is better,]

...Who?

[boxcar]

[ SHART, YOUR BRAIN. ]

Someone who left the Family.

[sacredpath]

The family? Your family?

[do they have the mafia in baldur's gate i just dont know]

[boxcar]

No, it's a criminal organisation. One of the biggest ones in the Vatican. Lots of connection to the Church.

[sacredpath]

Oh.

[so, she does have context for organized crime syndicates, and what they'll do to you if you don't obey.]

I didn't realize, though it makes some sense. You're so strong. [the scariest part is she's not, for once, saying that like she's objectifying him.] Then these activities were - maybe not officially sanctioned, by approved by the church?

[boxcar]

[ Help not the objectification based conversation sobriety checker. ]

I do not want to say officially sanctioned. More it is like, many members have connections.

[ Nepotism is real and can hurt you... and bribery is such an easy path for some. ]

It does make trying to escape a near impossibility.