pc: marcoh

[sacredpath]

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[boxcar]

If anyone did, I guess it might be you.

[ Differences aside, she gets the whole religious aspect stuff. ]

[sacredpath]

[she nods.]

I spent a long time pretending that I was her devoted servant, all while believing fully that I was already lost in her eyes, that I'd been thrown away.

I didn't want to admit it outloud to anyone. It would make it more permanent, and I was still clinging to hopes I could somehow undo what I believed I'd done.

[boxcar]

I do not claim to be that important to Alll-mer. I just go to Church. I am no Dark Priest, far from an Apostle.

[ That'd be blasphemous, he's pretty sure, to even try and claim the latter. ]

I don't know if that would make it better or worse.

...But Alll-mer did not make me kill, and I do resent the man who did.

[sacredpath]

[she blinks to herself, finding herself a little confused the longer this conversation goes on - not remembering even what she was professing to believe, or whether it felt right.

The man who did... how did he make you?

[boxcar]

[ This tracks, his views are in shambles too. But it's also probably an effect of him not being good at getting things across very well with words. All he's thinking about is how coercion to do what you don't like or else is not great. ]

He threatened my sister.

[sacredpath]

Ah.

[coercion is a little different, isn't it? it makes a difference.]

Were you able to save her, then?

[boxcar]

[ He. Hesitates. ]

I was working on it. I am working on it.

[sacredpath]

...What do you still need to do to help her?

[boxcar]

...Earn the redemption. Find a way out of Prehevil.

Then do whatever I can to be sure the Family will not be after her any more.

[ Add 'survive' to that list now that they know they're in some kinda fucked up murder tournament. He's got his work REAL cut out for him. ]

[sacredpath]

I don't know much about your God or your beliefs, but... I've never had a family, I've never had siblings to care for. If I did, and anyone was trying to take that away from me, I'd fight for them with everything I have.

[so whatever the church might say, she doesn't judge him.]

[boxcar]

You've never had a family?

[ What's that about. ]

[sacredpath]

No. I'm an orphan, supposedly. [not that she really knows.] My order took me in when I was a child.

[boxcar]

[ Girl your org is sus as hell. ]

..."Supposedly". Do you doubt this?

[sacredpath]

I don't know if it's doubt, exactly.

[she doesn't have any specific reason to think it's not true.]

But they don't always tell the truth. So maybe part of me liked to think it wasn't. Even if realistically, that would only mean that the family I did have abandoned me or never looked for me.

[boxcar]

...I think there is little wrong with that, to wish to know how your family is doing. And if they are not there, to wonder what happened to them.

...

I also do not have parents. I don't remember what happened at all. But I do have my sister, and everything I've done is my best to take care of her.

[sacredpath]

[she never thought much about what it would be like to have a brother or sister, but when she sees fidelio and basilio, or hears marcoh talk about his, she does feel envious, even if in both cases it seemed to lead them to fear over losing them.]

You don't remember what happened?

[boxcar]

I don't.

[ As far as anyone knows they're just GONE! ]

[sacredpath]

Well, then, it seems we have that in common after all.

[boxcar]

Not exactly everyone's favourite thing to share.

[ Not like, fully amused, nor is it dry, but it's the closest he'll get to a joke ever. ]

[sacredpath]

[a joke... from sweet marcoh... she smiles.]

I didn't necessarily say it was a nice one.

[boxcar]

[ True. ]

...Family is important. But I think, you can also choose what kind of family is important to you. That is all.