[ Marcoh's just a regular believer. Shadowheart, on the other hand, sounds like she's something more along the lines of a High Priestess. That's pretty cool, honestly. ]
As a Dark Justiciar, I serve as Shar's voice in places she can't reach. I want to spread her darkness here.
This botched redemption trial is the perfect opportunity, isn't it? Everyone will be searching for something else, some other way to find meaning, in the wake of these failures.
[ Oh like a missionary almost... he just nods at the phrase 'spread her darkness', that's obviously totally normal. He's not a priest himself but he gets it's like a whole thing they do. ]
...I guess so, yeah. Coming from where you are.
[ Though, mm. Sounds like a lot of people are lowkey becoming god-haters in real time. ]
I think, if you have done wrong, it is something you will know. You did say if she is displeased, she would let you know.
And she has before, but I was naive. I hadn't seen much of the world. When I first began traveling, I was taken by ideas that I knew didn't suit a cleric of Shar, but I thought there was no harm in dabbling in those thoughts.
I used to disagree. I used to find it repulsive, sometimes. I would do as I had to do, but inside, every time, I felt no relief, no satisfaction, only pain.
But I've overcome that. I prayed for my doubts to be quieted, and they were.
He's generally fairly open-minded if not closed-world. But something about this seems to give him pause, his pace slowing and falling a little behind. ]
If you didn't want to, then you shouldn't have to?
[ GIRL YOUR STOCKHOLM GET OUTTA THERE JENNY we'll make a Selunite out of you yet. Anyway his general respect of her has suddenly turned into something kind of very concerned. Blink twice if you need help. ]
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I think I'm here on purpose, to serve my role.
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Can I ask what that is?
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This botched redemption trial is the perfect opportunity, isn't it? Everyone will be searching for something else, some other way to find meaning, in the wake of these failures.
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...I guess so, yeah. Coming from where you are.
[ Though, mm. Sounds like a lot of people are lowkey becoming god-haters in real time. ]
I think, if you have done wrong, it is something you will know. You did say if she is displeased, she would let you know.
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[immediate agreement.]
And she has before, but I was naive. I hadn't seen much of the world. When I first began traveling, I was taken by ideas that I knew didn't suit a cleric of Shar, but I thought there was no harm in dabbling in those thoughts.
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[ Quiet thinking. ]
There are a lot of things that. Sometimes don't feel right. They tell you it is wrong. But is it really wrong if it doesn't hurt anyone?
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It isn't wrong if it does hurt someone, either.
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[ Tell him more. ]
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[ There ain't a single god here that isn't Not Safe For Humans to some level. ]
I guess it is... about if that person deserves it.
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That was the problem I dealt with. I didn't want to hurt certain people, even when I knew what Lady Shar's judgment of them would be.
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But you don't always agree.
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I used to disagree. I used to find it repulsive, sometimes. I would do as I had to do, but inside, every time, I felt no relief, no satisfaction, only pain.
But I've overcome that. I prayed for my doubts to be quieted, and they were.
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He's generally fairly open-minded if not closed-world. But something about this seems to give him pause, his pace slowing and falling a little behind. ]
If you didn't want to, then you shouldn't have to?
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Lady Shar does not tolerate defiance. Perhaps there are gods that do, but half-hearted worship is not good enough for her.
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...Because you do what she tells you to.
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Because I passed her tests and proved my loyalty, yes.
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I've...
[ Not something he really generally wants to admit but. It was kind of topic-adjacent before this conversation took a worrying turn. ]
...I've also killed someone I did not wish to. But I do not think that is praise-worthy.
I... think of it. Often.
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...Who?
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Someone who left the Family.
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[do they have the mafia in baldur's gate i just dont know]
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