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[well.]
I used to disagree. I used to find it repulsive, sometimes. I would do as I had to do, but inside, every time, I felt no relief, no satisfaction, only pain.
But I've overcome that. I prayed for my doubts to be quieted, and they were.
I used to disagree. I used to find it repulsive, sometimes. I would do as I had to do, but inside, every time, I felt no relief, no satisfaction, only pain.
But I've overcome that. I prayed for my doubts to be quieted, and they were.
[a light laugh.]
Lady Shar does not tolerate defiance. Perhaps there are gods that do, but half-hearted worship is not good enough for her.
Lady Shar does not tolerate defiance. Perhaps there are gods that do, but half-hearted worship is not good enough for her.
It was fear for a very long time. But that's why I'm so happy now. She loves me.
[to be fair her brain really broke right now at the moment.]
Because I passed her tests and proved my loyalty, yes.
Because I passed her tests and proved my loyalty, yes.
...
I've...
[ Not something he really generally wants to admit but. It was kind of topic-adjacent before this conversation took a worrying turn. ]
...I've also killed someone I did not wish to. But I do not think that is praise-worthy.
I... think of it. Often.
I've...
[ Not something he really generally wants to admit but. It was kind of topic-adjacent before this conversation took a worrying turn. ]
...I've also killed someone I did not wish to. But I do not think that is praise-worthy.
I... think of it. Often.
[i really fucking wish she would be nice about this. we'll have to pc about this again later when her brain is better,]
...Who?
...Who?
The family? Your family?
[do they have the mafia in baldur's gate i just dont know]
[do they have the mafia in baldur's gate i just dont know]
Oh.
[so, she does have context for organized crime syndicates, and what they'll do to you if you don't obey.]
I didn't realize, though it makes some sense. You're so strong. [the scariest part is she's not, for once, saying that like she's objectifying him.] Then these activities were - maybe not officially sanctioned, by approved by the church?
[so, she does have context for organized crime syndicates, and what they'll do to you if you don't obey.]
I didn't realize, though it makes some sense. You're so strong. [the scariest part is she's not, for once, saying that like she's objectifying him.] Then these activities were - maybe not officially sanctioned, by approved by the church?
[ Help not the objectification based conversation sobriety checker. ]
I do not want to say officially sanctioned. More it is like, many members have connections.
[ Nepotism is real and can hurt you... and bribery is such an easy path for some. ]
It does make trying to escape a near impossibility.
I do not want to say officially sanctioned. More it is like, many members have connections.
[ Nepotism is real and can hurt you... and bribery is such an easy path for some. ]
It does make trying to escape a near impossibility.
And even if church members are connected, it does not mean the God you follow accepts it, does it?
But you care what your god believes. And you've committed a sin before his eyes, haven't you?
I know how that feels.
[she can't reassure him, but she does know.]
[she can't reassure him, but she does know.]
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