chrono

[sacredpath]

Comments

[sacredpath]

[shaking her head.]

I think... there's something about Lucas that this dredged up.

[clockpunk]

[ ...ugh. nauseating to think about. ]

...yeah, I heard... something, along those lines. Not from him directly.

[sacredpath]

[nodding.]

He didn't deserve this, though. Whatever else, I don't think he's a bad person.

[clockpunk]

He was kind since day one. [ but. ] Seeing this today... I don't think so either, but it hurts bad enough that I'm strugglin' to put that aside.

[sacredpath]

Because it was so violent?

[clockpunk]

Partly. But... mostly because the betrayal hurts more.

[ sighs. ]

Yesterday morning, we were texting. He tried to reassure me, and I tried to do the same. It just makes me feel sick, now. Even if it's possession, that feeling doesn't pass right away.

[sacredpath]

I know. It's not something you can just logic away. But I think those attempts at reassuring you were genuine, who he truly is. Not this.

I think he wanted to be the sort of person everyone could depend on and find comfort in, and I don't want to let the entity or whatever happened to him in his past define him as someone other than that.

[clockpunk]

[ he nods, shallowly. ]

My head knows it, probably. My heart's... gonna take more time. [ rubs at his eyes. uughhh. ] It's easier to be angry than sad.

[sacredpath]

I know. That's always true.

[ahhh, puts a hand on his shoulder.]

And I don't think there's anything wrong with being angry at him, either.

[clockpunk]

[ he will actually relax a little at the touch, tension easing. ]

...thanks. I think you're the first person who's told me that who I actually believe means it.