You feel sorry for Anders, when he feels pain over Hawke, but he'd feel that over you as well. I don't think you'd wish for that.
[she knows he hasn't considered it, she understands at this point that he's only selfish the way a little kid is selfish, when he hasn't thought through what he does might mean for anyone else.]
Many of the things you believe remind me of the things I was taught to believe.
That isn't entirely a bad thing. [not. being sad. the beliefs part.] You were taught a way to exist by people who only wanted to use you, who wanted to teach you only the things that would help them achieve their aims.
Trying to learn something new is painful, but it will be worth it. [she is still so new to all of this, still trying to convince herself of this fact, and she's lying. she doesn't know if it's worth it yet. she just hopes it will be.]
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Date: 2025-03-16 05:08 am (UTC)[she knows he hasn't considered it, she understands at this point that he's only selfish the way a little kid is selfish, when he hasn't thought through what he does might mean for anyone else.]
Many of the things you believe remind me of the things I was taught to believe.
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Date: 2025-03-16 02:51 pm (UTC)[He shifts, rubbing his his arm, tasting the acid in the back of his mouth.]
I don't know what I believe anymore.
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Date: 2025-03-16 06:53 pm (UTC)Trying to learn something new is painful, but it will be worth it. [she is still so new to all of this, still trying to convince herself of this fact, and she's lying. she doesn't know if it's worth it yet. she just hopes it will be.]
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Date: 2025-03-16 08:52 pm (UTC)It has to be worth it. Otherwise, what's the point of all this? If there's no place to take what I learn?
[Just pain? Is that really the reason he's here instead of free within the void?]
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Date: 2025-03-16 11:35 pm (UTC)It's not only pain, right? There are things that make you happy, I know that's true. [for example, comedy roasts.]
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Date: 2025-03-17 12:52 am (UTC)[He does love a good roast... he leans into her hand. ]
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Date: 2025-03-18 01:41 am (UTC)But it will come back.