pc: kaworu

[sacredpath]

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[peripheries]

Yes. I still believe that there's kindness in giving someone a merciful death. Yet people put their own fear of feeling guilt over showing that kindness. Though at least some people here have been able to do the right thing.

[Like Anders with Hawke. He shifts to put his hands in his pockets, scuffing his shoe on the floor.]

Yes. What I would have suffered at the hands of the committee would have been much worse. And I got to die knowing someone cared about me and I'd be remembered.

Though... now, more than ever, I wish our meeting had been different. If I could try again, I wouldn't do it the same way.

[sacredpath]

[that's true, from his perspective.]

You'll be remembered, but for him, your memory will always hurt.

[not that she thinks he should have died at the hands of these people who hurt him. but he should know, too.]

What would you do differently, if you could?

[peripheries]

Not all memories are pleasant. But what matters is that it doesn't fade.

[he'd never had much so he'll take what he can get. Even if the memory hurts at least it exists.]

I don't know exactly. But I'd approach him for my own reasons and not because the committee instructed me to watch him.

[sacredpath]

I don't know if I agree that that's all that matters. You're thinking about what you want, about what he can make you feel, but what about how you make him feel?

[doesn't that matter, too?]

[peripheries]

[No. Because Manga Shinji is the wooooorrrrsssstttt.

But no he actually lets his gaze connect with hers.]

I hope he comes to understand he did the right thing even if it was painful and will find comfort in knowing that truth.

[sacredpath]

I hope so, too.

[but he doesn't seem to get it.]

Do you even want to go back, then? Get another chance with him?

[peripheries]

I don't know. I'm still trying to understand what I want. At the time, I was happy knowing he cared for me at least a little.

[He laces his fingers together and shrugs a little.]

But I don't know if you can redo what has been done.

[sacredpath]

You can't. But you could experience something new.

[peripheries]

That's true. I just have to find what I want that to be.

[sacredpath]

Maybe it wouldn't have to be in the same place you left. No offense, but it seems terrible there.

[there are cute boys in every universe but most of them don't put children in boxes for their whole life.]

Not that mine is significantly improved...

[peripheries]

Yes. That's why this chance at a second life... I don't even know if I want that. I fulfilled my purpose by rejecting it.

[he looks up at her.]

Your world has many different paths. I've seen them. There's hope.

[sacredpath]

That's true. But it is still a world where cruel and terrible things happen to people who don't deserve it.

[there's not freedom from that just because there are choices.]

I rejected my purpose, and maybe that was meant to do, but it doesn't mean I have a sense of what the future ought to hold for me.