[He wants to smile for her. He knows that's the right thing to do. But instead a tear starts to run from single visible eye and he sniffles and wipes it away.]
[it's just a fleeting thought, not even truly her own. she pushes it away.]
It didn't, but I think last time I envied Fidelio, because he kept his own mind, he did all the right things. And now I'm quite aware that isn't an enviable position to be in, either.
I don't even know if I was entirely helpless. [i mean she did kill a bunch of them.] But... I feel sorry for the girl that I was.
[some version of her who never had contemplated all of her friends bursting into monsters and picking up a sword and putting them down was traumatized by all of this.]
The point is, I hated watching that happen to all of you.
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I want you near me too.
[He just presses his face into her shoulder.]
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What that place did... none of us could have easily resisted. I was on guard, because it happened to me last time.
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I'm sorry it happened to you again.
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[it's just a fleeting thought, not even truly her own. she pushes it away.]
It didn't, but I think last time I envied Fidelio, because he kept his own mind, he did all the right things. And now I'm quite aware that isn't an enviable position to be in, either.
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[some version of her who never had contemplated all of her friends bursting into monsters and picking up a sword and putting them down was traumatized by all of this.]
The point is, I hated watching that happen to all of you.