Yes. I still believe that there's kindness in giving someone a merciful death. Yet people put their own fear of feeling guilt over showing that kindness. Though at least some people here have been able to do the right thing.
[Like Anders with Hawke. He shifts to put his hands in his pockets, scuffing his shoe on the floor.]
Yes. What I would have suffered at the hands of the committee would have been much worse. And I got to die knowing someone cared about me and I'd be remembered.
Though... now, more than ever, I wish our meeting had been different. If I could try again, I wouldn't do it the same way.
I don't know if I agree that that's all that matters. You're thinking about what you want, about what he can make you feel, but what about how you make him feel?
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[Like Anders with Hawke. He shifts to put his hands in his pockets, scuffing his shoe on the floor.]
Yes. What I would have suffered at the hands of the committee would have been much worse. And I got to die knowing someone cared about me and I'd be remembered.
Though... now, more than ever, I wish our meeting had been different. If I could try again, I wouldn't do it the same way.
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You'll be remembered, but for him, your memory will always hurt.
[not that she thinks he should have died at the hands of these people who hurt him. but he should know, too.]
What would you do differently, if you could?
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[he'd never had much so he'll take what he can get. Even if the memory hurts at least it exists.]
I don't know exactly. But I'd approach him for my own reasons and not because the committee instructed me to watch him.
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[doesn't that matter, too?]
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But no he actually lets his gaze connect with hers.]
I hope he comes to understand he did the right thing even if it was painful and will find comfort in knowing that truth.
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[but he doesn't seem to get it.]
Do you even want to go back, then? Get another chance with him?
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[He laces his fingers together and shrugs a little.]
But I don't know if you can redo what has been done.
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[there are cute boys in every universe but most of them don't put children in boxes for their whole life.]
Not that mine is significantly improved...
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[he looks up at her.]
Your world has many different paths. I've seen them. There's hope.
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[there's not freedom from that just because there are choices.]
I rejected my purpose, and maybe that was meant to do, but it doesn't mean I have a sense of what the future ought to hold for me.