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You'll see.
[she gives him a smile, and then begins to walk into the dark forest.]
[she gives him a smile, and then begins to walk into the dark forest.]
[this is killing me.]
I think what I like best about this place is that I'm not afraid of it. So many of you seem so unsettled by it, but there's nothing in it that holds any fear for me.
I think what I like best about this place is that I'm not afraid of it. So many of you seem so unsettled by it, but there's nothing in it that holds any fear for me.
I don't think you were ever afraid of the other places either, were you?
[ Shadowheart seems like a resilient person. ]
I do think... I don't know. Maybe it is unsettling, maybe it isn't. It's just otherworldly enough, but it's like...
[ Hmm. ]
It isn't dissimilar to grounds that gods touch.
[ Shadowheart seems like a resilient person. ]
I do think... I don't know. Maybe it is unsettling, maybe it isn't. It's just otherworldly enough, but it's like...
[ Hmm. ]
It isn't dissimilar to grounds that gods touch.
Exactly.
[grounds that gods touch - that's beautiful.]
Every single place we have been before, I have been afraid. Terribly so, always. If I managed to hide it, I'm surprised.
[grounds that gods touch - that's beautiful.]
Every single place we have been before, I have been afraid. Terribly so, always. If I managed to hide it, I'm surprised.
In a way. But only metaphorically.
[she keeps wandering with no obvious destination in mind.]
We've both talked about our faith, but I never wanted to admit it. I was consumed by the fear that I'd been abandoned by my goddess. That if she still wanted me, then I wouldn't be here.
[she keeps wandering with no obvious destination in mind.]
We've both talked about our faith, but I never wanted to admit it. I was consumed by the fear that I'd been abandoned by my goddess. That if she still wanted me, then I wouldn't be here.
[ Oh. Yeah. ]
...I get it. I didn't think this was a place I would go either. Not that where I thought I'd go would be better.
It's sort of the opposite. It felt too nice. Being here.
Although the recent things make me think, maybe it wasn't actually a mistake.
...I get it. I didn't think this was a place I would go either. Not that where I thought I'd go would be better.
It's sort of the opposite. It felt too nice. Being here.
Although the recent things make me think, maybe it wasn't actually a mistake.
I don't think it was a mistake, either.
[she looks at him, concern in her eyes.]
When you say you didn't think you'd go here... did you think you'd be punished for something? [or maybe more importantly.] Do you believe your god loves you? Actually loves you?
[she looks at him, concern in her eyes.]
When you say you didn't think you'd go here... did you think you'd be punished for something? [or maybe more importantly.] Do you believe your god loves you? Actually loves you?
...Being loved by gods isn't normal. Not personally. Except for Sylvian, the old god of love, but even then her definition isn't like what you should expect from people.
With the right prayers and affinity, they will sometimes answer you with their blessings. But if you're asking if I've ever heard Alll-mer speak to me, then no.
With the right prayers and affinity, they will sometimes answer you with their blessings. But if you're asking if I've ever heard Alll-mer speak to me, then no.
That is how most gods are. But it doesn't have to be. I know my goddess loves me.
And that's why everything is so much easier now.
And that's why everything is so much easier now.
[nodding.]
I haven't done anything wrong. I haven't done anything I need to repent for. Just because I had private doubts and private failings doesn't mean I failed her.
I don't know why I wasted so much time consumed that I'd be judged on those things. In my actions, I was always her champion. And I know now, with certainty, that is enough.
I haven't done anything wrong. I haven't done anything I need to repent for. Just because I had private doubts and private failings doesn't mean I failed her.
I don't know why I wasted so much time consumed that I'd be judged on those things. In my actions, I was always her champion. And I know now, with certainty, that is enough.
The title is Dark Justiciar. Somehow I forgot that. Maybe some trick of this place.
I think I'm here on purpose, to serve my role.
I think I'm here on purpose, to serve my role.
As a Dark Justiciar, I serve as Shar's voice in places she can't reach. I want to spread her darkness here.
This botched redemption trial is the perfect opportunity, isn't it? Everyone will be searching for something else, some other way to find meaning, in the wake of these failures.
This botched redemption trial is the perfect opportunity, isn't it? Everyone will be searching for something else, some other way to find meaning, in the wake of these failures.
[ Oh like a missionary almost... he just nods at the phrase 'spread her darkness', that's obviously totally normal. He's not a priest himself but he gets it's like a whole thing they do. ]
...I guess so, yeah. Coming from where you are.
[ Though, mm. Sounds like a lot of people are lowkey becoming god-haters in real time. ]
I think, if you have done wrong, it is something you will know. You did say if she is displeased, she would let you know.
...I guess so, yeah. Coming from where you are.
[ Though, mm. Sounds like a lot of people are lowkey becoming god-haters in real time. ]
I think, if you have done wrong, it is something you will know. You did say if she is displeased, she would let you know.
She certainly would.
[immediate agreement.]
And she has before, but I was naive. I hadn't seen much of the world. When I first began traveling, I was taken by ideas that I knew didn't suit a cleric of Shar, but I thought there was no harm in dabbling in those thoughts.
[immediate agreement.]
And she has before, but I was naive. I hadn't seen much of the world. When I first began traveling, I was taken by ideas that I knew didn't suit a cleric of Shar, but I thought there was no harm in dabbling in those thoughts.
Curiosity is not inherently bad, I think. Though I don't mean to tread on what you believe, and how.
[ Quiet thinking. ]
There are a lot of things that. Sometimes don't feel right. They tell you it is wrong. But is it really wrong if it doesn't hurt anyone?
[ Quiet thinking. ]
There are a lot of things that. Sometimes don't feel right. They tell you it is wrong. But is it really wrong if it doesn't hurt anyone?
[well. got some news for you about sharran beliefs.]
It isn't wrong if it does hurt someone, either.
It isn't wrong if it does hurt someone, either.
Does the God you follow never want people to be hurt?
[she nods...]
That was the problem I dealt with. I didn't want to hurt certain people, even when I knew what Lady Shar's judgment of them would be.
That was the problem I dealt with. I didn't want to hurt certain people, even when I knew what Lady Shar's judgment of them would be.
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