[ he bristles a bit at this phrasing, because god he just really!! hates shar!! ]
Nonsense. [ he says, gently but firmly. ] She cannot hold onto you forever. You are capable of denying her any power over you. It's not an easy process, but each time you rally against her, it's prying another cold finger from around your heart.
Maybe. It would have been easier this way. And it makes me wonder, are we really going to pick up the pieces from this loss? I don't know if I'm cut out for this.
[trying to be open, trying to reach out to people - it was easier when she thought she'd done this herself.]
I don't know that it's so difficult as it is that I became overly confident. I've been trying to put Lady Shar behind me and find another way forward, but I admittedly don't find it easy, to try and face difficult things knowing I don't even have the faith I held onto before. [as poor of a handhold as it was.]
This week, it felt as though what I'd been trying to accomplish had just simply...worked. So a lot of other things suddenly seemed possible for me, too.
Is that so terrible? To just believe something will work?
[ thoughtfully. ]
That seems to me to be a different kind of faith entirely. A faith in yourself, perhaps, and not in a god. It isn't as if you don't have a safety net. All of us would catch you, if you fell.
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Date: 2025-03-22 02:18 am (UTC)Nonsense. [ he says, gently but firmly. ] She cannot hold onto you forever. You are capable of denying her any power over you. It's not an easy process, but each time you rally against her, it's prying another cold finger from around your heart.
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Date: 2025-03-22 02:41 am (UTC)[trying to be open, trying to reach out to people - it was easier when she thought she'd done this herself.]
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Date: 2025-03-22 02:48 am (UTC)[ ... ]
You really don't think you're capable of picking up the pieces?
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Date: 2025-03-22 03:28 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2025-03-22 03:42 am (UTC)[ not in an accusing way, but more the type of way to try and get her to talk him through it. ]
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Date: 2025-03-22 03:59 am (UTC)I don't know that it's so difficult as it is that I became overly confident. I've been trying to put Lady Shar behind me and find another way forward, but I admittedly don't find it easy, to try and face difficult things knowing I don't even have the faith I held onto before. [as poor of a handhold as it was.]
This week, it felt as though what I'd been trying to accomplish had just simply...worked. So a lot of other things suddenly seemed possible for me, too.
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Date: 2025-03-22 04:28 am (UTC)[ thoughtfully. ]
That seems to me to be a different kind of faith entirely. A faith in yourself, perhaps, and not in a god. It isn't as if you don't have a safety net. All of us would catch you, if you fell.
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Date: 2025-03-22 01:44 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2025-03-22 02:58 pm (UTC)Then I will have faith in you, until you can find it. I won't let that candle go out.