[ good news: he is healed! at least! that's the nice thing. his eyeball is still missing because i'm mean but the rest of him seems less fucked.
his thoughts are just full of garbage stress scribbles. stopping a suicide attempt and watching someone try to midtrial has done a number on his nerves. but he glances over at shadowheart. ]
Well, you won't need to worry about me. I don't have any feelings at all. [ he says thinly, like a pissy baby. ]
It's really not alright, but the reason you just expressed. And I'd hope he'd apologize, if he's not feeling too sorry for himself that he'll be separated from his beloved for 48 hours.
Yes. In fact, I'd be surprised if he wasn't chosen. [ ... ] There isn't anything we can do about it. We will just watch him take out his anger on someone who is just as horrified to have done it.
They do not deserve the vitriol, no. They were horrified. Scared.
[ it's why he was so insistent on sticking close - not just because siffrin is his friend, but because he can't imagine how terrifying it'd be to know that you couldn't control yourself, and watch someone come at you like you meant to do it. ]
Marcoh and Siffrin are close. Or were close. We'll see if that survives.
We will see. I'm not a fool, I can tell he is not well and is being consumed by some ugly impulse, but he hardly seems to be attempting to resist it, either.
But maybe somehow he will recognize that Siffrin does not deserve to die by someone who hates them, nor is that anything close to what Uruha wanted for them.
I suppose I don't know all of Uruha's deepest darkest secrets, but I cannot imagine he would've wanted Marcoh to beat Siffrin to a bloody pulp in his honor.
[ ear flick. ]
We have done all we can to stop him from ruining himself. Now he has to decide if he wants to take the hands reaching for him or not.
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Date: 2025-03-30 01:29 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2025-03-30 01:42 am (UTC)[Could everyone not go insane at once?]
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Date: 2025-03-30 02:14 am (UTC)his thoughts are just full of garbage stress scribbles. stopping a suicide attempt and watching someone try to midtrial has done a number on his nerves. but he glances over at shadowheart. ]
Well, you won't need to worry about me. I don't have any feelings at all. [ he says thinly, like a pissy baby. ]
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Date: 2025-03-30 02:19 am (UTC)That was cruel, and you did not deserve it. And of all of the things he did today, that is the one where he lost my respect for good.
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Date: 2025-03-30 02:29 am (UTC)... It was a jarring feeling to realize that everything I've ever told him about myself could have just been used as ammunition in that moment.
[ ... ]
I have heard worse. It's... [ alright, he guesses. ]
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Date: 2025-03-30 02:34 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2025-03-30 02:45 am (UTC)It isn't that I don't understand the emotion, but it is a little ridiculous. [ ... ] I don't expect an apology.
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Date: 2025-03-30 02:49 am (UTC)[she's just going to be angry about it anyway, so there.]
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Date: 2025-03-30 02:54 am (UTC)Ah, but how would he have the time? There's only a few hours between now and the lost returning... and he must use all of that time to brood.
[ ok you brat be nice a man is dead ]
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Date: 2025-03-30 02:59 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2025-03-30 03:04 am (UTC)Yes. In fact, I'd be surprised if he wasn't chosen. [ ... ] There isn't anything we can do about it. We will just watch him take out his anger on someone who is just as horrified to have done it.
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Date: 2025-03-30 12:29 pm (UTC)[sighing. there's nothing to do about it, though.]
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Date: 2025-03-30 03:33 pm (UTC)[ it's why he was so insistent on sticking close - not just because siffrin is his friend, but because he can't imagine how terrifying it'd be to know that you couldn't control yourself, and watch someone come at you like you meant to do it. ]
Marcoh and Siffrin are close. Or were close. We'll see if that survives.
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Date: 2025-03-30 03:37 pm (UTC)But maybe somehow he will recognize that Siffrin does not deserve to die by someone who hates them, nor is that anything close to what Uruha wanted for them.
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Date: 2025-03-30 03:58 pm (UTC)[ ear flick. ]
We have done all we can to stop him from ruining himself. Now he has to decide if he wants to take the hands reaching for him or not.