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[sacredpath]

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[sacredpath]

I was told the same thing this week. I asked God if there was any way to avoid killing them, and the answer was rather definitive.

[but she understands. breaking that trust, that is the most painful part.]

It would have been nice to keep her trust in place, but... the real girl, the real version of her, would likely prefer her soul intact rather than her trust.

[noirges]

... that's what I thought too.

[ softly. even though he's clearly struggling with the results of what he did. he runs his fingers through his own hair, heaving a big sigh ]

I know there are things I could've done better. I believe that too. It was hard for me to think about things like votes at the moment...

[ he was so focused on just trying to save her ]

... even now it's hard for me to sort my thoughts.

[sacredpath]

Frankly, I've spent much of my time this past week thinking through it could be who killed Zhongli. I know you've been doing the same. Laurence told me you were planning to try and see whether Claude was injured in some way.

[frowning at that, but it's a small pool that fits.]

And more than that, I have been thinking about what I would do, if I could find out for certain. If I did know, though, I don't believe I would have done any differently than what you did. Especially if the culprit is someone I care for, and some of the people on that list are people I care for very dearly.

The truth is, if you had brought it up to the group, we never would have reached a consensus on what to do in time.

[noirges]

Ah... we didn't get around to it this week. [ that injury check. what a week it's been! but... she's right otherwise. he has been trying to do that same search ]

... maybe we wouldn't have. [ agreeing, because there's a reason why he didn't announce that he was going to do it. most people had agreed with mizu's statement that sometimes a quick kill is better than execution, and he was one of them. that was all the sign he needed ]

I just wish I could've given her a gentler ending than that.

[sacredpath]

It was as gentle as you could.

[a moment of pain and heartbreak, but maybe she's going to a place where those feelings can be healed.]

I think it would be a good thing, if you were to write her and apologize for breaking her trust. But beyond that, I don't know what more any of us could have done for her.

[noirges]

... I already did.

[ softly, because of course he did. he was penning it in his head while he was dissociating. he sighs again, and takes a sip of his drink ]

I asked Adolphe to look after her for me. Maybe he could do a better job than I did.

[sacredpath]

[she feels some skepticism at that. but it's fine. she will take some of her drink as well.]

Good. She may or may not forgive you, and that's her right. [which is not something she thinks he doesn't know, but - ] Meaning that if certain people do choose to forgive you, they have the right to choose that as well.

[noirges]

[ . . . well. ]

... that's okay. [ even if he feels unsure about it, like he does think he deserves worse ] I think... I'm not sure what I want. I don't want to be hated, even if I expect it.

But I also don't know if I can be forgiven so easily. [ frowns ] I'll... try not to be difficult about it.