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[sacredpath]

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[sacredpath]

[yves... she is just putting him off because he's a dumb puppy, but not out of any desire to toy with him.]

Love hasn't ever been that important to me. Is it important to you?

[noirges]

It is.

[ without hesitation ]

I'm not always proud to admit it... but I think I do want to be loved—but falling short of that, I'd like everyone to experience whatever love comes their way.

[sacredpath]

[awww.]

Living vicariously through others feels like a shame, if that's what you really want for yourself.

[noirges]

[ yves shakes his head ]

It really does bring me joy.

It's not like I can force anyone to love me, after all. I'll just have to hope that maybe there's a chance for it another time, another way.

[sacredpath]

Well, not force, obviously but - I would say you're almost absurdly eligible. You haven't tried simply asking someone on a date?

[90% of this cast would say yes...]

Or is there another issue? Afraid they won't like what's past the surface? [maybe that's too personal to ask someone, but as fears go, it's certainly a common enough one. and an easily understandable one.]

[noirges]

[ not the 90%

yves looks a little sheepish at that, a bit embarrassed at her kindness, but he does offer a smile ]

It's nice of you to say so. But well, I've dated before... it's just never ended well.

[ he'll go to reach for one of the heart-shaped balloons just to hold it, and then acting like affection week never ended he'll hold out his hand for her so they can just walk together ]

Partly because they think they can like me, and end up afraid of or bothered by me.

[ so her guess isn't wrong ]

[sacredpath]

I think I can understand that. I don't have anything to hide, technically, and I still worry about that sort of thing.

[she will hold hands with him yea.]

What's so frightening about you?

[noirges]

[ :) affection week is every week... he looks pleased by this, expression brightening up for a moment as they walk along the market ]

I don't think I could ever be afraid of you.

[ but he'll look thoughtful for a moment before answering ]

People thought I was cursed—sometimes they still do. I was caught in a fire when I was younger, and the scar that was left behind was... strange. [ phantom of the opera ass ] And the island is already superstitious.

[sacredpath]

That's... very cruel.

[superstition doesn't really surprise her, nor does cruelty. but there's something about hating a child only for having a scar that's especially awful.]

[noirges]

[ a soft, sad smile ]

... maybe it was. But I think people do what they can to protect themselves, especially on an island where our lifespans were already so short. A cursed or possessed child could be as terrifying as a demon.

I try not to hold grudges.

[sacredpath]

Is that something that would have been possible? For a child to truly be cursed or possessed?

[there's some pretty fucking cursed children in baldur's gate so it's not out of the question.]

[noirges]

... I don't know. Maybe? We had a curse upon the island in general, so that none of us ever aged past 23 years...

Though I don't know if I've ever met a cursed child.

[ but people make wide leaps and crazy conclusions in this shitty little island ]

[sacredpath]

That's quite a devastating curse. I suppose it makes sense some would turn to superstition, but even so...

[even if she can understand, she can't agree that it isn't cruel.]

I don't think there's anything frightening about you. Well... perhaps other than how easily you manage to win people over.

[noirges]

[ ah that makes him laugh a little bit, raising a brow ]

Have I won you over? [ teasing ]

... if people like me, then I'm really happy about it. I decided at some point that I'd try to love everyone, after all. I hope it comes through.

[sacredpath]

It's fair to say you have.

[she smiles a little, almost amused at that.]

It comes through, but I can't quite imagine that. You can't really love everyone, can you?

[noirges]

I do have limits, and there are things I don't forgive.

[ he feels like he needs to assert this because everyone talks to him like he has a backbone of wet tissue paper ]

... but I do try. I don't want anyone to believe that they're undeserving of love.

[sacredpath]

[she does think he has a backbone. i mean, he told her he died trying to kill one of his friends.]

The Sharrans don't really believe in love. [sorry.] We pledge ourselves to Shar, and consider those sorts of bonds to be a distraction from the greater purpose.

[noirges]

[ shadowheart.... :pleading_face: ]

... can't you just... pledge yourselves to Shar together?

[sacredpath]

[well don't worry maybe she can just change her mind.]

No. We're meant to reject those sort of attachments, even between one another.

[noirges]

[ looks curious... as someone so obsessed with love: ]

Are you content with that? I guess it doesn't need to be a focus for everyone...

[sacredpath]

I'm...

[she has to think about it for a moment.]

I haven't always found it easy to follow Shar's commands. Avoiding romantic love isn't the issue, exactly, but I do get attached to people.

[noirges]

[ a small smile ]

... is it bad if I said that I'm glad you do? Even though I know it might make things harder...

I think it's normal to not want to be alone in life or afterlife.

[sacredpath]

Maybe. [a small smile.] I... like people. I like being around them. Well, some of them.

But if I want a future serving Lady Shar, I will have to find a way to change that about myself. [that is an if, though.]

[noirges]

[ . . . a little frown. he's a little curious, and just a little disbelieving ]

... do you think that's possible? To change that you like people. To change that those people like you, and want you to be happy without sacrifice?

[ maybe shadowheart is stronger than him - well, she definitely is. but... ]

[sacredpath]

[is she though? the question just makes her look sad.]

I'm not sure it is. Or if it is, that I'm able to. [...] The reason I'm here is because I defied Shar. I became weak to the influence of other people, and I - I wanted to know about my past more than I wanted to follow her command. And I thought she would discard me for what I did, but then there were so many signs that perhaps she hadn't given up on me.

If she sees something in me worth saving after that, it's hard not to think maybe I should try harder.