pc: yves

[sacredpath]

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[sacredpath]

I... hope so.

[she nurses her drink a little.]

The Sharrans took me in. I was an orphan, I didn't have anywhere else to go. So I have always only wanted to become a champion of Lady Shar. And yet, it is more difficult than it ought to be, sometimes.

[noirges]

[ nods... he gets that. ]

I'm glad you had them. Some people took me in too, and I'm really grateful to them.

What makes it difficult, though...? Do you have to do more...?

[sacredpath]

She asks very much of us. I haven't always found it easy to follow.

[noirges]

[ a beat. gently: ]

... you don't have to tell me the specifics if you don't want to. But if it matters so much to you, I do want to know.

That said, no matter what it is... that's a hard thing to experience no matter what. I'm sorry your faith can feel like it's testing your devotion, even when you want to give so much.

[sacredpath]

You're very kind.

[but so kind. too kind, like he gives a little bit of himself to everyone.]

Being tested is, I think, something every person of faith goes through, isn't it?

[noirges]

It's easy when I think you deserve kindness.

[ a simple response ]

But... maybe. I'm afraid I wasn't very faithful in life. Still, even if it's common... that doesn't make it less impactful for you, right?

[sacredpath]

[so this is what it means to be an emotional slut...]

Yes. In my case, it was very impactful. Shar demands much, and being unable to meet her expectations can be an especially painful trial.

[noirges]

[ :) HELL yea

but yves frowns at that. it stings just to hear about secondhand ]

... I can tell you love her. Or at the very least, you want to show your love for the people who took you in, and in turn their goddess. Your goddess.

[ she didn't pull away earlier - so he'll just lightly set a hand on her shoulder again ]

I still think it's... okay, to not want to give someone everything. Or if you do, and they might think it's not enough... that doesn't mean they're right.

Your efforts are meaningful. I don't want you to think you're not enough for anyone.

[sacredpath]

[love is maybe not exactly the right word for either, but it's not not the right word. he does hit the nail on the head, though. she doesn't want to give everything. she wanted one thing for herself, and that was too far.]

... Thank you, Yves. I don't think anyone has said something like that to me for a long time.

[noirges]

[ he smiles, soft ]

Then I'm happy to hear it means something to have it said now.

I'll remind you whenever you want.

[sacredpath]

[unless you're dead you fuck.]

Be careful what you promise. I may take advantage. [she can't stay sappy for too long.]

[noirges]

[ this distrust....

he laughs anyway, raising up his glass! ]

I think I'll try my luck. If you do, can you at least make it fun?