[ yves will just hop right over the counter and get them both more drinks, looking at home as a bartender. this time, he'll match whatever shadowheart gets.
he smiles a little at her caveat ]
You can ask me anything. I don't mind.
[ his tone becomes more serious, though notably not sad ] I walked into a fight knowing I'd probably die in the process. It was just the most certain way to make sure my... opponent would die.
[neither adjective was entirely a compliment, anyway.]
I suppose you must have felt responsible for him, if he was a friend. Even so. Most people value their life too much to risk it, even to stop something terrible from coming to pass.
I think... there's gray areas. Even though I made the decision I did, it's not like I don't have regrets for what I didn't accomplish in my life. For those I left behind.
But I think you're right that at some point, the scale has to tip on one side or the other. I didn't want to die, but I was willing to.
I secured a chance for the rest of the country to do better, so now it's up to them. Though I guess that is a privilege in being dead - not dealing with the aftermath.
I suppose that's true. If you could return, would you?
[it's still saturday but also resurrection is so common where she's from, you can just pay a skeleton man $100 and come back to life as many times as you want.]
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clink!]
At least that, though the comforts only lead me to further questions and make me rather uneasy.
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a glance over at her glass ]
Is that what the drink's for? To quell some of the uneasiness?
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That in part. It has been a rather long day. I didn't much enjoy the dying part, either.
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Unexpected end?
[ but, to be polite, as an out: ]
Only if you want to vent about it.
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[she looks like she's considering it, and then looks back down at her drink. too mysterious, i'm afraid.]
I made a mistake, that's all. It shouldn't have ended that way.
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I know it doesn't change much... but I'm sorry.
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It doesn't change much, no.
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So should we drink some more until it stings a bit less?
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[she'll swirl what's left in her glass, finishing it so she can order more.]
What of you? I've hardly answered a one of your questions, so you owe me no answers, of course.
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he smiles a little at her caveat ]
You can ask me anything. I don't mind.
[ his tone becomes more serious, though notably not sad ] I walked into a fight knowing I'd probably die in the process. It was just the most certain way to make sure my... opponent would die.
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Courageous, I suppose. Your opponent was someone who needed killing, then?
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I wouldn't call it courageous. [ a gentle rebuttal, more serious than when she called him gallant ]
My friend went down the wrong path. He killed plenty of people to get to that point, and he would've killed even more if not stopped.
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[neither adjective was entirely a compliment, anyway.]
I suppose you must have felt responsible for him, if he was a friend. Even so. Most people value their life too much to risk it, even to stop something terrible from coming to pass.
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tilts head ]
Is this a polite way of asking if I wanted to die?
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I'm not sure it was polite. But there really are only two options, aren't there? Either the courage to risk everything, or not risking much at all?
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[ though he looks thoughtful about it ]
I think... there's gray areas. Even though I made the decision I did, it's not like I don't have regrets for what I didn't accomplish in my life. For those I left behind.
But I think you're right that at some point, the scale has to tip on one side or the other. I didn't want to die, but I was willing to.
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[or at least it makes more sense why he doesn't want to be viewed as courageous for it.]
I hope you were at least able to accomplish what you set out to do?
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[ satisfied ]
I secured a chance for the rest of the country to do better, so now it's up to them. Though I guess that is a privilege in being dead - not dealing with the aftermath.
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[it's still saturday but also resurrection is so common where she's from, you can just pay a skeleton man $100 and come back to life as many times as you want.]
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but he pauses ]
... it depends, I guess. On my other options, if the chance for resurrection among people here is limited... that sort of thing.
But the fact that I'm not immediately saying yes is probably my selfishness at play.
[ he looks over to her ]
Would you go back?
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I don't think you're selfish, though. Sometimes journeys do end.
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[ though he tilts his head ]
Are you... in a spot that's hard to get out of, even if you were to go back?
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But if I could trust that I'll have my goddesses' mercy and protection, I think I could take that chance.
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[ thoughtful, because the most religious person he knows is lucas. he thinks lucas is great. ]
... was there a reason for doubt?
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