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[maybe she's just jealous he was her boyfriend on monday and dying for some other guy on saturday... the timeline is problematic]
I'm sure. It will be even harder if he has no way to admit it.
I'm sure. It will be even harder if he has no way to admit it.
[ we fridged our women yet again
yves just laughs a little bit at that, even as he takes a sip of his wine. it's a little weak, given how little he's laughed this weekend... but he is trying ]
I'll just harass him more next time we meet.
Everyone's been reminding me that his soul's just lost... not gone. So... I'll count on that.
yves just laughs a little bit at that, even as he takes a sip of his wine. it's a little weak, given how little he's laughed this weekend... but he is trying ]
I'll just harass him more next time we meet.
Everyone's been reminding me that his soul's just lost... not gone. So... I'll count on that.
[ somewhere in the new areas, you might encounter a familiar face—sort of! yves is looking around with curiosity, but his face is... maskless? where there is normally half a mask, there is just clear, umblemished skin. though the more you look at him, you might realize that his eyes are... different. the center of his pupil has an unnatural cyan glow to it, and his smiles no longer reach his eyes. as though the heart of the emotion is no longer accessible to him. ]
Good afternoon.
Good afternoon.
[oh. she smiles so, so wide to see this. she looks the same as she ever did, but happier. there's something less angry, less distant about her.]
Yves. Look at you. You're lovely like this.
Yves. Look at you. You're lovely like this.
[ SWEET SHADOWHEART.... SHE'S SO HAPPY.... :pleading_face: meanwhile yves looks at her with some slight confusion before he smiles ]
I see. You were familiar with the original. Well, I can accept the compliment on his behalf.
He would say thank you. This is the face he wanted for a long time, after all.
I see. You were familiar with the original. Well, I can accept the compliment on his behalf.
He would say thank you. This is the face he wanted for a long time, after all.
[yeah!]
I didn't mean your face. The mask never troubled me.
[he's just dead behind the eyes now, and that's so nice to see.]
I'd like to know what changed, between you and your original.
I didn't mean your face. The mask never troubled me.
[he's just dead behind the eyes now, and that's so nice to see.]
I'd like to know what changed, between you and your original.
You're very open-minded compared to others on the island...
[ sounding a little impressed but he just nods ]
Relivers normally do not possess all the same range of emotions at the original... I'm afraid that I've lost all feelings of friendship that the original might've held so dear. [ said very clinically, not mournfully ] Though he died some time ago, and a number of his friends already passed to begin with.
I think Relivers normally have a stronger sense of self to be attached to the one who created them but... I have heard so much about the original separately that sometimes he still feels apart from me.
[ sounding a little impressed but he just nods ]
Relivers normally do not possess all the same range of emotions at the original... I'm afraid that I've lost all feelings of friendship that the original might've held so dear. [ said very clinically, not mournfully ] Though he died some time ago, and a number of his friends already passed to begin with.
I think Relivers normally have a stronger sense of self to be attached to the one who created them but... I have heard so much about the original separately that sometimes he still feels apart from me.
I'm sorry to hear that you aren't the same as the original.
[but the rest of what he says sounds normal and fine.]
Yves is a person carrying such strong feelings of love and friendship. That sort of powerful emotion can't last, I think. It will either destroy you eventually, or you must destroy it within yourself.
I wondered if maybe he was different, though. So it's a shame not to see it play out.
[but the rest of what he says sounds normal and fine.]
Yves is a person carrying such strong feelings of love and friendship. That sort of powerful emotion can't last, I think. It will either destroy you eventually, or you must destroy it within yourself.
I wondered if maybe he was different, though. So it's a shame not to see it play out.
It does sound like that's what happened to him, in the end.
[despite all she said, she suddenly feels a little sad about it.]
[despite all she said, she suddenly feels a little sad about it.]
As much as I can be friends with anyone. Someone else has my heart first, and she tends to be jealous of sharing.
[what a week! there's bloody people to chase, unless you're on cyoa 2 and this is before that, but afterwards, she's just sitting and having a drink. come join.]
Awful. I'm very tired of this.
[should not be getting drunk on a thursday probably but whatever sometimes you're confident.]
You had a completely different personality. It was awful.
[should not be getting drunk on a thursday probably but whatever sometimes you're confident.]
You had a completely different personality. It was awful.
Yeah, that was really weird. I wanted to be a Reliver for a long time, but never thought it'd turn out that way.
[ maybe he should've considering how emotive he is. but also he'll reach for her hand? just to gently catch her fingers with his, whatever hand she's not using to hold her glass ]
You were different, too.
[ maybe he should've considering how emotive he is. but also he'll reach for her hand? just to gently catch her fingers with his, whatever hand she's not using to hold her glass ]
You were different, too.
Was I?
[she says, but she'll take his hand and squeeze it.]
Thank you for thinking so. I feel as though I hardly even know who I am, after all of this.
[she says, but she'll take his hand and squeeze it.]
Thank you for thinking so. I feel as though I hardly even know who I am, after all of this.
I don't know. I really don't.
[it does seem a little similar though.]
I'm missing a lot of parts of my life. But I've been away from the Sharrans for some weeks now, and I felt like... we've discussed it. I've not always found it easy to obey or to truly have faith, and I've questioned my place there.
Except I can easily remember another life, one where I found my faith again, had all of those questions resolved.
[it does seem a little similar though.]
I'm missing a lot of parts of my life. But I've been away from the Sharrans for some weeks now, and I felt like... we've discussed it. I've not always found it easy to obey or to truly have faith, and I've questioned my place there.
Except I can easily remember another life, one where I found my faith again, had all of those questions resolved.
[she has to think about it. it would be nice to say she wasn't happier, but.]
I was happier. Because I knew that Lady Shar really and truly did love me.
[at the end of the day, maybe she never disagreed. there's nothing better than knowing that you're someone capable of being loved.]
But the things I did to gain that love - I was miserable, each time. It hurt. And then after a while it stopped hurting anymore.
I hate knowing that a little. That it would have stopped hurting, eventually, if I'd kept trying.
I was happier. Because I knew that Lady Shar really and truly did love me.
[at the end of the day, maybe she never disagreed. there's nothing better than knowing that you're someone capable of being loved.]
But the things I did to gain that love - I was miserable, each time. It hurt. And then after a while it stopped hurting anymore.
I hate knowing that a little. That it would have stopped hurting, eventually, if I'd kept trying.
... I think it's okay to hate knowing that. To know a version of events in which... you got numb to it, and got something else you wanted.
[ to become numb to the pain of everything that she was asked to do, but that's what stands out to yves. the fact that there was pain at all. ]
But you can be loved without hurting, Shadowheart. Even if it might not be from your Lady Shar...
It's just as easy for me to think of a future where you can be loved unconditionally, like you deserve.
[ to become numb to the pain of everything that she was asked to do, but that's what stands out to yves. the fact that there was pain at all. ]
But you can be loved without hurting, Shadowheart. Even if it might not be from your Lady Shar...
It's just as easy for me to think of a future where you can be loved unconditionally, like you deserve.
[no one really knows her, knows everything about her. not even she does, and there is a lot of reason to believe that the parts of herself she knows very little about are bad.
but...she does want to believe what he's saying is true. she's found it so easy to come to care for people who are strangers to her, too. maybe knowing someone and all of the things they've done isn't as necessary as she thought.]
At the least, I don't think I want to change in the ways I'd have to.
but...she does want to believe what he's saying is true. she's found it so easy to come to care for people who are strangers to her, too. maybe knowing someone and all of the things they've done isn't as necessary as she thought.]
At the least, I don't think I want to change in the ways I'd have to.
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