pc: yves

[sacredpath]

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[noirges]

Your goddess...

[ thoughtful, because the most religious person he knows is lucas. he thinks lucas is great. ]

... was there a reason for doubt?

[sacredpath]

I'm asking for divine intervention. It would be a foolish person to take it for granted. I've tried to serve her, but I don't know if it's enough.

week 0; monday

[sacredpath]

[she's exploring the lighthouse, catching herself at the top when she realizes that the door is locked. but at least she'll find a place to sit up there so she can watch the ocean. if someone comes by, she'll wave down.]

...It's locked up here, but the view is still nice.

[noirges]

[ yves is probably also exploring, and upon seeing her, he waves back eagerly!! also coming up now to join... ]

The ocean's beautiful, isn't it? Did you get to see it often before?

[sacredpath]

I'm from a city with a port, but it isn't peaceful like this. You?

[noirges]

What is she like? As a goddess.

[ does she too say day drinking is fine? ]

[noirges]

[ when he sits to join her, he's close enough to occasionally brush shoulders... friends!! ]

Our island was pretty isolated, and it was ocean on all sides. But... similar, in the past few years, it's been pretty hard to find peace.

So it's nice - the quiet like this.

[sacredpath]

[funnily enough...]

Lady Shar, the Nightsinger. She is the patron of the darkness and of secrecy and loss. While most fear the dark, like children, those who follow Shar embrace it. We don't hide in it, we act, unburdened by the illusion of safety and false comforts. We destroy the corrupt and lend solace to the sick and grieving.

[the general vibe of her saying this all though is like someone knocking on your door and trying to give you literature, it doesn't feel off the cuff at all.]

[sacredpath]

Hard to find peace because it is busy? Or was there another reason?

[he can brush shoulders. normally she's a bit flinchy at contact but with the affection week, she won't shy away.]

[noirges]

Ah... That sounds nice - to have someone on the side of those who are struggling. Then... I hope that if you've been able to spend so much of your life in service of her, she can recognize it. Then maybe she can provide some of that solace to you, too.

[noirges]

[ :) affection week ]

Um...

[ he's clearly looking for a way to say it ]

Another reason. A lot of people were dying due to an internal conflict.

[sacredpath]

I... hope so.

[she nurses her drink a little.]

The Sharrans took me in. I was an orphan, I didn't have anywhere else to go. So I have always only wanted to become a champion of Lady Shar. And yet, it is more difficult than it ought to be, sometimes.

[sacredpath]

[that is more what it sounded like, yea.]

The same one that ultimately took your life?

[noirges]

[ nods... he gets that. ]

I'm glad you had them. Some people took me in too, and I'm really grateful to them.

What makes it difficult, though...? Do you have to do more...?

[noirges]

[ nods ]

That's when my friends went off the deep end. [ he'll look back out into the ocean and take a deep breath in with the next breeze ] But I loved my hometown a lot, even up to that last moment.

[ and then, like he's remembering something now: ]

Are you going to take their offer, Shadowheart? To go back to life. I thought of you when they mentioned it.

[sacredpath]

She asks very much of us. I haven't always found it easy to follow.

[noirges]

[ a beat. gently: ]

... you don't have to tell me the specifics if you don't want to. But if it matters so much to you, I do want to know.

That said, no matter what it is... that's a hard thing to experience no matter what. I'm sorry your faith can feel like it's testing your devotion, even when you want to give so much.

[sacredpath]

You're very kind.

[but so kind. too kind, like he gives a little bit of himself to everyone.]

Being tested is, I think, something every person of faith goes through, isn't it?

[noirges]

It's easy when I think you deserve kindness.

[ a simple response ]

But... maybe. I'm afraid I wasn't very faithful in life. Still, even if it's common... that doesn't make it less impactful for you, right?

[sacredpath]

[so this is what it means to be an emotional slut...]

Yes. In my case, it was very impactful. Shar demands much, and being unable to meet her expectations can be an especially painful trial.

[noirges]

[ :) HELL yea

but yves frowns at that. it stings just to hear about secondhand ]

... I can tell you love her. Or at the very least, you want to show your love for the people who took you in, and in turn their goddess. Your goddess.

[ she didn't pull away earlier - so he'll just lightly set a hand on her shoulder again ]

I still think it's... okay, to not want to give someone everything. Or if you do, and they might think it's not enough... that doesn't mean they're right.

Your efforts are meaningful. I don't want you to think you're not enough for anyone.

[sacredpath]

[love is maybe not exactly the right word for either, but it's not not the right word. he does hit the nail on the head, though. she doesn't want to give everything. she wanted one thing for herself, and that was too far.]

... Thank you, Yves. I don't think anyone has said something like that to me for a long time.

[noirges]

[ he smiles, soft ]

Then I'm happy to hear it means something to have it said now.

I'll remind you whenever you want.

[sacredpath]

[unless you're dead you fuck.]

Be careful what you promise. I may take advantage. [she can't stay sappy for too long.]

[noirges]

[ this distrust....

he laughs anyway, raising up his glass! ]

I think I'll try my luck. If you do, can you at least make it fun?