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That's true. It's easier to have fun knowing that everyone else is relaxing a little, too.

[noirges]

Right? [ just a big content sigh, all boneless and pleased ] It'd feel a lot more like heaven if every night could be like this.

[sacredpath]

[well, if she were going to reform heaven, she would probably start by the less murder instead of the more parties, but she understands the sentiment.]

It seems that all of us felt more at ease, too, knowing for certain that the others are somewhere where they may be recovered.

[noirges]

[ listen..... both. no trials just parties ]

I'd say.... Though it does make me miss them a bit too. I'd like to see them all... but Ellie would've been even more beautiful. She would've loved this.

Adolphe would've loved it less, but I think that's why it'd be fun to bring him along anyway.

week 4, thursday

[noirges]

[ this is a thursday from hell

where she ]

[sacredpath]

[hopital...

she is in one of the rooms. she's been tended to by the non-wounded doctor, and is dressed in loose clothes to cover the bandages, so other than a bruise and some scrapes on her face, not much is visible.

her emotional state is pretty bad. disoriented, a little paranoid, definitely unhappy. but also something guarded has fallen back in place that she was missing before.

she does warm up to see him, though, even if it's a bit sad.]

Yves.

[noirges]

[ oh nooooo. yves smiles, and his own emotions reflect that ever-present warmth to see her, even though he's obviously fretting ]

Hi, Shadowheart. [ softly, bringing up a chair to sit with her ] How are you feeling? Do you need anything I can bring you?

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[taking a deep breath, turning to look at him.]

Nothing I need right now. I'm very happy to see you, though.

[sacredpath]

[warm feelings at this.]

She certainly would have made it livelier. And you would have gotten to tease Adolphe, which is equally as fun as him enjoying himself.

[noirges]

[ a little curious, tilting his head ]

Oh? I always feel that way when I get to see you, but is there something specific I should know?

[noirges]

She would've helped me pulling all the wallflowers from their little nooks!

But you're right! When he's back, you should help me tease him more. He deserves it for leaving me on my own for so long!

[sacredpath]

I will gladly help you tease him, though I feel teasing is always most effective from the ones we care for most.

[that's your incredibly platonic best dudes forever bromance partner we're talking about]

[sacredpath]

[how'd this get lost from my tags. a sigh out.]

It's really quite stupid, but in the backstory we were given, you were dead. I'm glad you aren't, even though it was also a world in which we were all children, so it is odd to think of it that way.

week 4; saturday

[sacredpath]

[well. she's not that mobile so if you're at the top of the lighthouse she'll kill you.]

[noirges]

[ um it's saturday? he is at the bar of course, as per their tradition

though he did go ahead of her this week, giving her the option to not show up if she didn't want to ]

[sacredpath]

[imagine she checks the top of the lighthouse first and then the bar. no, okay, weirdo. she decided between that midtrial and now that actually she's mad about it.

she is here at the bar.]

Ah, you came on ahead.

[noirges]

[ yea she should be mad about it! he's clearly still not over it. the bundle of emotions that were hard to parse in trial are clearer now. guilt, a sense of failure, and self-hatred. so far from his usual good vibes

despite this, he just offers a sheepish smile ]

... I didn't want you to feel obligated.

[sacredpath]

Silly.

[just lightly chiding. but going to sit. and sighing.]

I know it's even messier, now. [on the one hand, he was right. on the other hand, she still acted again, and if they hadn't caught akihiko, this would have been very scary.] But if anything, even though I think I understand, I wish you'd told someone else what you'd learned.

[he was not the right person to do this. on the other hand, she would personally feel rather cruel asking someone else to, even the ones like mizu and saber and wis'adel who seem enthusiastic.]

[noirges]

[ just ordering two drinks for them... ]

... I promised her I wouldn't. She was so scared, and asked me not to.

[ and there is that sense of guilt again, so strong. he doesn't regret what he did, because he does think he was right. but he hates that he had to break her trust to do it. that feeling of betrayal she'd felt—the echo of it sticks with him and breaks his heart over and over again. ]

I told her I'd ask the angels what we should do about it, under the guise of asking about last week. So I did.

[ they got their answer this morning and

well. ]

[sacredpath]

I was told the same thing this week. I asked God if there was any way to avoid killing them, and the answer was rather definitive.

[but she understands. breaking that trust, that is the most painful part.]

It would have been nice to keep her trust in place, but... the real girl, the real version of her, would likely prefer her soul intact rather than her trust.

[noirges]

... that's what I thought too.

[ softly. even though he's clearly struggling with the results of what he did. he runs his fingers through his own hair, heaving a big sigh ]

I know there are things I could've done better. I believe that too. It was hard for me to think about things like votes at the moment...

[ he was so focused on just trying to save her ]

... even now it's hard for me to sort my thoughts.

[sacredpath]

Frankly, I've spent much of my time this past week thinking through it could be who killed Zhongli. I know you've been doing the same. Laurence told me you were planning to try and see whether Claude was injured in some way.

[frowning at that, but it's a small pool that fits.]

And more than that, I have been thinking about what I would do, if I could find out for certain. If I did know, though, I don't believe I would have done any differently than what you did. Especially if the culprit is someone I care for, and some of the people on that list are people I care for very dearly.

The truth is, if you had brought it up to the group, we never would have reached a consensus on what to do in time.

[noirges]

Ah... we didn't get around to it this week. [ that injury check. what a week it's been! but... she's right otherwise. he has been trying to do that same search ]

... maybe we wouldn't have. [ agreeing, because there's a reason why he didn't announce that he was going to do it. most people had agreed with mizu's statement that sometimes a quick kill is better than execution, and he was one of them. that was all the sign he needed ]

I just wish I could've given her a gentler ending than that.

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It was as gentle as you could.

[a moment of pain and heartbreak, but maybe she's going to a place where those feelings can be healed.]

I think it would be a good thing, if you were to write her and apologize for breaking her trust. But beyond that, I don't know what more any of us could have done for her.

[noirges]

... I already did.

[ softly, because of course he did. he was penning it in his head while he was dissociating. he sighs again, and takes a sip of his drink ]

I asked Adolphe to look after her for me. Maybe he could do a better job than I did.