Shadowheart

[hmm. a little twinge of sadness at a memory of being a terrified, inexperienced girl facing all of that.]

It was. But I think what happened to you was more painful, probably? Or at least... [actually, she is aware Charlie doesn't know this.] On the first Thursday journey I went on, Anders and I both were... possessed, maybe, or just manipulated by this monstrous being. I wound up hurting a lot of people in that state.

[so she would have much rather that not have happened to her again.]