On the road, I met people. We were all in a shared predicament, so we were forced to travel together. But some of them had priorities that were different than mine.
We wound up spending a great deal of time that I'm not sure we had to spare untangling problems for other people. And I complained, and resented it, but... if I must live in the memory of a world where I put my foot down, where we never made those same choices, where I was willing to part ways with them over their weakness in insisting on using our efforts to save helpless peoples' lives, I find it a dreadful world to contemplate.
That is a terrifying thought, isn't it? [smile.] Unless it's the truth. In which case, I'm more afraid that the real one made a mistake and threw away everything that meant anything to me.
It is... but based on our previous conversations. I don't think that's the person you are. You seem like someone who means well. Just a bit sloppy for an adult.
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Maybe it's that I did get the chance to go out into the world. Whatever those first connections you had were would matter, wouldn't they?
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[He leans back against the wall, letting his body go slack.]
Who were they?
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On the road, I met people. We were all in a shared predicament, so we were forced to travel together. But some of them had priorities that were different than mine.
We wound up spending a great deal of time that I'm not sure we had to spare untangling problems for other people. And I complained, and resented it, but... if I must live in the memory of a world where I put my foot down, where we never made those same choices, where I was willing to part ways with them over their weakness in insisting on using our efforts to save helpless peoples' lives, I find it a dreadful world to contemplate.
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Are you afraid that the real you might be one where you chose to say the same?
[He would be.]
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You're annoying for a child, so we're even. [...] Thank you for saying so.
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[You're not supposed to say that outloud!]
Besides even if you weren't the person you hoped you were, you can still change. Don't let fate become your cage.