[okay. she will just come and sit with him. she doesn't know what happened to him in the fade, but she does know what she saw happen.]

There is a me who has done terrible things too, and she is standing right here. I don't remember all of them, but I know I have been cruel and I have tortured and I have killed and I have caused suffering for people for no reason other than that I was made to believe I had to be that sort of person.

You are not alone in feeling horror about the things you are capable of when pushed to extremes.