[oh. Well. That’s quite a lore drop for her, though by now she’s seen bits and pieces of enough that it doesn’t come as a complete shock, just an ugly confirmation of what she’s been beginning to suspect.]
… I see. It’s true, then. They abducted me.
[all that time, believing she was an orphan, unwanted by anyone other than Shar. all of it was just a lie. But she’ll explain to him the piece that makes this make sense.]
There was an old - well, I was told it was propaganda, a lie spread by Selǔnites. But supposedly, Sharrans would abduct Selǔnite children and turn them to Shar, a way to weaken Selǔne and demonstrate her superiority.
[sometimes people do........ unfortunately (?) this is not one of those]
... Specific reason. I was contracted to an Enchanted Blade, which fell in the Hishaku's hands. But because of my Eternal Contract, I was the only person in the world who could use its power—and the contract ends only in death.
It's not as serious as it sounds—it just means that I'm technically the sole owner of the blade for as long as I live, even if it's not in my possession.
The only real price is that I gave up my ability to use sorcery, since I don't have the spirit energy capacity for both that and the blade's powers.
[there's a pause, where his mouth presses into a line and grief flickers across his face.]
But they had no qualms about killing the swords' blacksmith to steal the blades, working with criminal organizations, or murdering innocents on their way to us, so I'd rather not find out, either.
Yes, that is the frustrating thing, isn't it? Some moments feel as though they will change your life forever, but then your life simply stops all the same.
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… I see. It’s true, then. They abducted me.
[all that time, believing she was an orphan, unwanted by anyone other than Shar. all of it was just a lie. But she’ll explain to him the piece that makes this make sense.]
There was an old - well, I was told it was propaganda, a lie spread by Selǔnites. But supposedly, Sharrans would abduct Selǔnite children and turn them to Shar, a way to weaken Selǔne and demonstrate her superiority.
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Oh.
[oh. that's pretty fucking awful! he's not sure where to start unpacking with that.]
... Then that wolf—that man—was...
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[god. she doesn't know. her father? some other family member? but she just. doesn't know.]
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[it feels cruel to think about, especially without knowing what became of him.]
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[which is depressing, too, but so would finding out be.
anyway please give me an uruha memory too.]
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Is there a reason they want to kill you, or just one of those things?
[sometimes people do just try to kill you.]
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... Specific reason. I was contracted to an Enchanted Blade, which fell in the Hishaku's hands. But because of my Eternal Contract, I was the only person in the world who could use its power—and the contract ends only in death.
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It's not as serious as it sounds—it just means that I'm technically the sole owner of the blade for as long as I live, even if it's not in my possession.
The only real price is that I gave up my ability to use sorcery, since I don't have the spirit energy capacity for both that and the blade's powers.
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... Hence why there are people determined to see us, the Sword Bearers, dead to obtain that power.
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[there's a pause, where his mouth presses into a line and grief flickers across his face.]
But they had no qualms about killing the swords' blacksmith to steal the blades, working with criminal organizations, or murdering innocents on their way to us, so I'd rather not find out, either.
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Including people you cared about.
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honestly he kind of assumed shadowheart had just skimmed over that part since he'd acted calm about it in the memory, but.]
Rokuhira-san and then my guards, yes.
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[he did act calm about it in the memory, just less calm about it now.]
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... Losing people is a part of conflict. And I'm the one who ran when they told me to.
[doesn't regret it, knows that staying behind wouldn't have helped, but.]
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[but it still hurts, to lose someone who mattered.]
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[unfortunately,]
But you're right.
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Yes, that is the frustrating thing, isn't it? Some moments feel as though they will change your life forever, but then your life simply stops all the same.
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[for a fulfilling life, or to avoid death.]
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[strength in convictions...]
Though lack of conviction has done more good for me than one might think.
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Yeah, being not 100% set in your beliefs might've been a good thing in your case...
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[which is kind of funny to think about.]
Very good to have convictions, unless they are wrong. A simple enough lesson.
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