[ It's... well, it's a lot for even him to dissect. He's always known he's more prone to anger than he'd typically admit, but that sort of gut-deep rage -- it's only been wrenched out of him twice. It's hard to try to justify himself in front of anyone like that, outside of the simplest nature of it: he snapped because he felt cornered past a breaking point, relating to somebody he loves but failed to protect.
At the time, he didn't feel bad for it. Refused to, even, because how could you, how dare you? But without the rage to turn it outwards into an all-consuming flame, all he has is an uncertain guilt. ]
Killing someone who doesn't deserve it is. And, even now, I still don't believe in hurting others.
But I know that might be hard to believe with how I acted.
[ It's hard for him to believe he's a good person when he has that kind of capacity to do harm. ]
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Date: 2025-04-03 01:40 pm (UTC)At the time, he didn't feel bad for it. Refused to, even, because how could you, how dare you? But without the rage to turn it outwards into an all-consuming flame, all he has is an uncertain guilt. ]
Killing someone who doesn't deserve it is. And, even now, I still don't believe in hurting others.
But I know that might be hard to believe with how I acted.
[ It's hard for him to believe he's a good person when he has that kind of capacity to do harm. ]