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[she nods.]
I spent a long time pretending that I was her devoted servant, all while believing fully that I was already lost in her eyes, that I'd been thrown away.
I didn't want to admit it outloud to anyone. It would make it more permanent, and I was still clinging to hopes I could somehow undo what I believed I'd done.
I spent a long time pretending that I was her devoted servant, all while believing fully that I was already lost in her eyes, that I'd been thrown away.
I didn't want to admit it outloud to anyone. It would make it more permanent, and I was still clinging to hopes I could somehow undo what I believed I'd done.
I do not claim to be that important to Alll-mer. I just go to Church. I am no Dark Priest, far from an Apostle.
[ That'd be blasphemous, he's pretty sure, to even try and claim the latter. ]
I don't know if that would make it better or worse.
...But Alll-mer did not make me kill, and I do resent the man who did.
[ That'd be blasphemous, he's pretty sure, to even try and claim the latter. ]
I don't know if that would make it better or worse.
...But Alll-mer did not make me kill, and I do resent the man who did.
[she blinks to herself, finding herself a little confused the longer this conversation goes on - not remembering even what she was professing to believe, or whether it felt right.
The man who did... how did he make you?
The man who did... how did he make you?
[ This tracks, his views are in shambles too. But it's also probably an effect of him not being good at getting things across very well with words. All he's thinking about is how coercion to do what you don't like or else is not great. ]
He threatened my sister.
He threatened my sister.
Ah.
[coercion is a little different, isn't it? it makes a difference.]
Were you able to save her, then?
[coercion is a little different, isn't it? it makes a difference.]
Were you able to save her, then?
[ Another week another SUCKS TO BE HERE. Marcoh is in the Church, but like, in the back and in a corner. Would be easily missable if he wasn't a giant brick of a guy.
It's normal to go to church on a Sunday right? So. Not that he looks like he's really doing much than just sitting there staring hard at the altar up front (I am ASSUMING there is an altar up front). ]
It's normal to go to church on a Sunday right? So. Not that he looks like he's really doing much than just sitting there staring hard at the altar up front (I am ASSUMING there is an altar up front). ]
[its not normal to go to the church on a sunday night but ive somehow been forced to be here... she walks in... ]
I think I left something in here yester - oh, Marcoh.
I think I left something in here yester - oh, Marcoh.
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[ It really is so funny when you're forced to go somewhere your character otherwise would not go to. Well dang he's been spotted. ]
Shadowheart.
[ He nods back to her. Don't let him stop you from finding items you dropped out of your inventory to make room for evidence checks so you can hover over them and read the descriptions. ]
Shadowheart.
[ He nods back to her. Don't let him stop you from finding items you dropped out of your inventory to make room for evidence checks so you can hover over them and read the descriptions. ]
...Earn the redemption. Find a way out of Prehevil.
Then do whatever I can to be sure the Family will not be after her any more.
[ Add 'survive' to that list now that they know they're in some kinda fucked up murder tournament. He's got his work REAL cut out for him. ]
Then do whatever I can to be sure the Family will not be after her any more.
[ Add 'survive' to that list now that they know they're in some kinda fucked up murder tournament. He's got his work REAL cut out for him. ]
Are you alright?
[it's been a rough weekend. not any better now than it was the day before.]
I'm not interrupting, am I?
[it's been a rough weekend. not any better now than it was the day before.]
I'm not interrupting, am I?
I don't know much about your God or your beliefs, but... I've never had a family, I've never had siblings to care for. If I did, and anyone was trying to take that away from me, I'd fight for them with everything I have.
[so whatever the church might say, she doesn't judge him.]
[so whatever the church might say, she doesn't judge him.]
No. I'm an orphan, supposedly. [not that she really knows.] My order took me in when I was a child.
It's not a church I find very conducive to prayer.
[though if he does, that's fine, she supposes.]
[though if he does, that's fine, she supposes.]
I don't know if it's doubt, exactly.
[she doesn't have any specific reason to think it's not true.]
But they don't always tell the truth. So maybe part of me liked to think it wasn't. Even if realistically, that would only mean that the family I did have abandoned me or never looked for me.
[she doesn't have any specific reason to think it's not true.]
But they don't always tell the truth. So maybe part of me liked to think it wasn't. Even if realistically, that would only mean that the family I did have abandoned me or never looked for me.
...I think there is little wrong with that, to wish to know how your family is doing. And if they are not there, to wonder what happened to them.
...
I also do not have parents. I don't remember what happened at all. But I do have my sister, and everything I've done is my best to take care of her.
...
I also do not have parents. I don't remember what happened at all. But I do have my sister, and everything I've done is my best to take care of her.
I can imagine why.
[after everything that happens in here beforehand. but she appreciates the need to sit and think.]
...I'm sorry if I was acting odd, earlier this week.
[after everything that happens in here beforehand. but she appreciates the need to sit and think.]
...I'm sorry if I was acting odd, earlier this week.
[she never thought much about what it would be like to have a brother or sister, but when she sees fidelio and basilio, or hears marcoh talk about his, she does feel envious, even if in both cases it seemed to lead them to fear over losing them.]
You don't remember what happened?
You don't remember what happened?
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