[Akihiko has his arms crossed, taking deep breaths]

...I'm not surprised either -- I was prepared for something and tried to deal with it.

[By filling himself with way too much caffeines. Didn't work and now he feels indescribably awful physically]

The part I didn't expect was that two of the people I was with would be dead in the morning.

[He's not blaming himself but now he wishes maybe he should have said something more to them last night]