When I realized, I despaired. I was being denied my very purpose in life.
But... in that moment, I heard a voice in my head, imploring me to choose a path. And I realized that there was yet more that I could put my faith into, to turn it into my strength once again.
If you also find yourself questioning the path that you are on, I think it is a good thing to explore it. A blind faith is not a stronger faith, but quite the opposite.
...I know I've been deceived, too. I only don't know exactly what has been hidden from me. But that's the problem I keep returning to. There's so much I don't know, and I'm expected to accept that as a matter of faith.
By everyone. [both.] They've never hidden how much they've concealed from me, how much of my own history they've taken from me, but... it was always explained to me as something that would help me become closer to Lady Shar, a sacrifice I was willing to make.
It's harder to trust anything, but that's sometimes the point - to take things on faith. But it's also quite possible the point is to make sure I don't know anything that might convince me not to have it.
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It deceived you. Took advantage of your beliefs.
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It did.
When I realized, I despaired. I was being denied my very purpose in life.
But... in that moment, I heard a voice in my head, imploring me to choose a path. And I realized that there was yet more that I could put my faith into, to turn it into my strength once again.
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...I'm glad that you found another way. Something else to believe in.
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If you also find yourself questioning the path that you are on, I think it is a good thing to explore it. A blind faith is not a stronger faith, but quite the opposite.
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[ other sharrans? or shar herself...? ]
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I'm just not so sure that's true.
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That must be difficult, if you cannot even know the reason why.
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It's harder to trust anything, but that's sometimes the point - to take things on faith. But it's also quite possible the point is to make sure I don't know anything that might convince me not to have it.