[she's not bothered by the details. she wants to know. but it still makes her feel sick to think about. not that she doesn't trust him, she does, but even the comment about him using a sword is half a joke. he got through this place without ever having to kill anyone at all outside of thursdays, and now he's speaking casually about doing it to someone who admittedly probably should be casually dispatched.
still, she'd meant what she said, about wanting to protect him from it. felt that most strongly after the awful experience, back when it felt like it was too real to have been a dream. instead, she might not ever even get to know if he made it.
she wants to ask him to just not, but it's hard to ask a question like that when you know the answer will likely be that he has to.]
You certainly have much more practice now. [she knows she obviously seems upset as he's talking and she really doesn't want him to feel as though it's because she doesn't believe in him. but it's a very hopeless situation for anyone, and he never really talks about it except when forced to.] It's not a bad plan, but I wish I could help.
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Date: 2025-04-05 03:05 am (UTC)still, she'd meant what she said, about wanting to protect him from it. felt that most strongly after the awful experience, back when it felt like it was too real to have been a dream. instead, she might not ever even get to know if he made it.
she wants to ask him to just not, but it's hard to ask a question like that when you know the answer will likely be that he has to.]
You certainly have much more practice now. [she knows she obviously seems upset as he's talking and she really doesn't want him to feel as though it's because she doesn't believe in him. but it's a very hopeless situation for anyone, and he never really talks about it except when forced to.] It's not a bad plan, but I wish I could help.