Frankly, I've spent much of my time this past week thinking through it could be who killed Zhongli. I know you've been doing the same. Laurence told me you were planning to try and see whether Claude was injured in some way.
[frowning at that, but it's a small pool that fits.]
And more than that, I have been thinking about what I would do, if I could find out for certain. If I did know, though, I don't believe I would have done any differently than what you did. Especially if the culprit is someone I care for, and some of the people on that list are people I care for very dearly.
The truth is, if you had brought it up to the group, we never would have reached a consensus on what to do in time.
Ah... we didn't get around to it this week. [ that injury check. what a week it's been! but... she's right otherwise. he has been trying to do that same search ]
... maybe we wouldn't have. [ agreeing, because there's a reason why he didn't announce that he was going to do it. most people had agreed with mizu's statement that sometimes a quick kill is better than execution, and he was one of them. that was all the sign he needed ]
I just wish I could've given her a gentler ending than that.
[a moment of pain and heartbreak, but maybe she's going to a place where those feelings can be healed.]
I think it would be a good thing, if you were to write her and apologize for breaking her trust. But beyond that, I don't know what more any of us could have done for her.
[she feels some skepticism at that. but it's fine. she will take some of her drink as well.]
Good. She may or may not forgive you, and that's her right. [which is not something she thinks he doesn't know, but - ] Meaning that if certain people do choose to forgive you, they have the right to choose that as well.
... that's okay. [ even if he feels unsure about it, like he does think he deserves worse ] I think... I'm not sure what I want. I don't want to be hated, even if I expect it.
But I also don't know if I can be forgiven so easily. [ frowns ] I'll... try not to be difficult about it.
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[ softly. even though he's clearly struggling with the results of what he did. he runs his fingers through his own hair, heaving a big sigh ]
I know there are things I could've done better. I believe that too. It was hard for me to think about things like votes at the moment...
[ he was so focused on just trying to save her ]
... even now it's hard for me to sort my thoughts.
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[frowning at that, but it's a small pool that fits.]
And more than that, I have been thinking about what I would do, if I could find out for certain. If I did know, though, I don't believe I would have done any differently than what you did. Especially if the culprit is someone I care for, and some of the people on that list are people I care for very dearly.
The truth is, if you had brought it up to the group, we never would have reached a consensus on what to do in time.
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... maybe we wouldn't have. [ agreeing, because there's a reason why he didn't announce that he was going to do it. most people had agreed with mizu's statement that sometimes a quick kill is better than execution, and he was one of them. that was all the sign he needed ]
I just wish I could've given her a gentler ending than that.
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[a moment of pain and heartbreak, but maybe she's going to a place where those feelings can be healed.]
I think it would be a good thing, if you were to write her and apologize for breaking her trust. But beyond that, I don't know what more any of us could have done for her.
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[ softly, because of course he did. he was penning it in his head while he was dissociating. he sighs again, and takes a sip of his drink ]
I asked Adolphe to look after her for me. Maybe he could do a better job than I did.
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Good. She may or may not forgive you, and that's her right. [which is not something she thinks he doesn't know, but - ] Meaning that if certain people do choose to forgive you, they have the right to choose that as well.
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... that's okay. [ even if he feels unsure about it, like he does think he deserves worse ] I think... I'm not sure what I want. I don't want to be hated, even if I expect it.
But I also don't know if I can be forgiven so easily. [ frowns ] I'll... try not to be difficult about it.