I have a good time being alive. I enjoy myself, and I like meeting people. I just... The more I talk it through, I don't think going back to my life as it was... would be what heals me.
[ a contemplative pause ]
... I don't really care about deserving Heaven, but I don't really wanna go back to life. I just... want to be with the people I care about, and at home, they've all already died.
So I guess... I'm trying to figure out where to go from here, but it's surprisingly difficult to find a reason to live.
I do understand that. [there are complicated reasons to want to live or die, but at the end of the day.] It does sound as though the problem may be less your desire to live and more your desire to return to a place where people generally treat you poorly, though.
[even if adolphe makes it more complex than that.]
I meant whatever he was. The version of you they made to take your place. Would you want to become someone else?
They started being nicer to me eventually... [ but. he does understand the overall point. he just huffs faintly at the question ]
You mean a Reliver... I actually wanted to, for a really long time. When you go through the process, all injuries disappear after all. I thought that was the only way I could find someone to love me.
[ even if it meant that he couldn't experience that feeling in return. maybe that was the real show of his desperation and selfishness ]
... I think we're both just learning the consequences of how far we'd go for love.
[ even if yves being a reliver was less of a choice in that specific situation, it's interesting to him to go through the feeling of it. or the... non-feeling of it.
and all the concern he gets from his friends after. ]
But if we're making requests... I hope you look for other options, too. [ and he'll bring their hands up, pressing a brief kiss to her knuckles ] I like watching you have fun here, teasing others and making connections that don't require sacrifice.
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[ he should sound more certain, but he doesn't. ]
I have a good time being alive. I enjoy myself, and I like meeting people. I just... The more I talk it through, I don't think going back to my life as it was... would be what heals me.
[ a contemplative pause ]
... I don't really care about deserving Heaven, but I don't really wanna go back to life. I just... want to be with the people I care about, and at home, they've all already died.
So I guess... I'm trying to figure out where to go from here, but it's surprisingly difficult to find a reason to live.
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[even if adolphe makes it more complex than that.]
I meant whatever he was. The version of you they made to take your place. Would you want to become someone else?
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You mean a Reliver... I actually wanted to, for a really long time. When you go through the process, all injuries disappear after all. I thought that was the only way I could find someone to love me.
[ even if it meant that he couldn't experience that feeling in return. maybe that was the real show of his desperation and selfishness ]
... I don't think I'd take it anymore, though.
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[even if she claimed to have liked it at the time.]
How much you feel for other people is among your finest qualities, even when you take it vexingly far. It would be a poor trade.
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[ even if yves being a reliver was less of a choice in that specific situation, it's interesting to him to go through the feeling of it. or the... non-feeling of it.
and all the concern he gets from his friends after. ]
But if we're making requests... I hope you look for other options, too. [ and he'll bring their hands up, pressing a brief kiss to her knuckles ] I like watching you have fun here, teasing others and making connections that don't require sacrifice.
I think it suits you.
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Alright. Then let's both of us look for better options.