[ah here he is. she thought about sad boy locations and finally stumbled on this one. she has purple and black smoke patterns blossoming on her skin as she frets a little.]
it seems to take a second, but he does look up at the sound of his name. when his gaze focuses and he sees shadowheart, he nods once. takes a second to find his words. ]
... I'm here. [ a little weak, a little dazed ] I think I'm still...
[this is the downside of loving this deeply and this openly, she thinks. this is why shar teaches to embrace loss. all of this feeling only leads to the same place in the end.
... there was an attack on the orphanage he grew up at by the Royal Guard. He died defending it, and protecting who he could. It was four years ago, for me.
[ there's a big sigh at that ]
I didn't think much about Heaven because I didn't think I'd end up there. But I thought if it existed... it'd just be a place where I could see my friends again.
So... I guess this place was Heaven-like for two weeks.
[ lucas is still here, and yves has already made so many more friends he's so grateful for but... it's hard to fill a void that a best friend leaves behind ]
... I won't do anything reckless. If his soul's lost, we don't know I'd go to the same place. I'm not looking to die for no reason.
[ but she already knows - that if there's a reason, he's also not afraid to ]
... but it's not because I don't care what anyone here thinks. I don't want to upset any of you, either. So... it's hard for me to know what to do, even if I know I don't need to decide right now.
That's what I'd say. There's no reason to decide now. Something unjust happened to him, and at the least, maybe we ought to see this through and find out why and make sure wherever they are, they're safe.
[but if at the end he doesn't want to go back, that's his business.]
I think Gamaliel said... we can see if anyone was behaving differently earlier, if there were maybe signs someone could be affected. What Jing Yuan said on Tuesday was different from what he said on Saturday. So maybe... Wednesday or Thursday?
But that requires us to know each other really well...
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...Yves, you're in here? I just wanted to know.
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it seems to take a second, but he does look up at the sound of his name. when his gaze focuses and he sees shadowheart, he nods once. takes a second to find his words. ]
... I'm here. [ a little weak, a little dazed ] I think I'm still...
I don't know.
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[sad boy hours... she looks him over, frowning, before approaching closer.]
I know. I don't expect anything, I just wanted to know you were safe.
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... I am. I won't do anything... reckless. [ a beat ] Adolphe just scolded me for that the other day.
[ so he has to keep it together at least the first 24 hours ]
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it hurts to see him this way.]
And that will be enough to hold you back?
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At least for today.
[ if he’s being honest ]
But I’ll try not to do anything that makes people sad. I won’t hurt anyone, if that’s what people are worried about.
[ quests of vengeance and all that ]
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[she doesn't mean that. well, mostly.]
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... I'll be okay. [ he will reach to close the distance between them for her hand ] ... it's not a new wound, just a reopened one.
I already lost him once before. I just wish I didn't have to again.
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What happened to him before? If you don't mind my asking.
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[ there's a big sigh at that ]
I didn't think much about Heaven because I didn't think I'd end up there. But I thought if it existed... it'd just be a place where I could see my friends again.
So... I guess this place was Heaven-like for two weeks.
[ lucas is still here, and yves has already made so many more friends he's so grateful for but... it's hard to fill a void that a best friend leaves behind ]
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[this is just so sad.]
They're still out there, supposedly.
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A different one... I only met Adolphe later in my life, though I would've wished for more time even alive too.
[ there's so many orphanages in this island because people die so fucking often ]
... they are. Though I think my response to that will make people sad too... so I'm trying to be careful.
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I think I can guess what it might be.
[if he wants to be with him (platonic) (no homo) then it's not like that isn't possible.]
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but yves will squeeze her hand once ]
... I won't do anything reckless. If his soul's lost, we don't know I'd go to the same place. I'm not looking to die for no reason.
[ but she already knows - that if there's a reason, he's also not afraid to ]
... but it's not because I don't care what anyone here thinks. I don't want to upset any of you, either. So... it's hard for me to know what to do, even if I know I don't need to decide right now.
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That's what I'd say. There's no reason to decide now. Something unjust happened to him, and at the least, maybe we ought to see this through and find out why and make sure wherever they are, they're safe.
[but if at the end he doesn't want to go back, that's his business.]
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... yeah. I think... the killer probably isn't in their right mind. Either of them, if there's two.
[ he's not sure how any of this is working ]
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[not going to mention the apples.]
The bigger question is why any of this is happening to us.
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The angels didn't know when I asked last week... but we'll check in with them tomorrow again, I guess.
[ . . . ]
They were so confident it wouldn't happen again.
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They seem sincerely in the dark to the extent I can tell, but it hasn't been much help.
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I think Gamaliel said... we can see if anyone was behaving differently earlier, if there were maybe signs someone could be affected. What Jing Yuan said on Tuesday was different from what he said on Saturday. So maybe... Wednesday or Thursday?
But that requires us to know each other really well...
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[how are they supposed to notice.]
Jiaoqiu suggested it might have to do with specific sins. Such as Jing Yuan acting particularly lazy.
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... maybe. We'll have to see what the physical evidence says tomorrow, and then see if we can find patterns once we find people.
[ and hopefully it won't be riding on the prayer of a ribbon in the last 10 minutes ]
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I'll do what I can to help.
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... thank you. I'll be better by tomorrow.
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[squeezes back.]