I suppose it must make you feel like a frustrating problem that we want to fix, which is not pleasant. [it admittedly doesn't sound nice, to have to deal with people's frustrations at how he reacts emotionally to his own life with his fucked up brain.]
When, really, it's not about your reaction. It's about what you think you deserve.
[ what he deserves... he's quiet, trying to think about that. what does he deserve? he knows what he'd like, but can he believe that's what he deserves? ]
... I guess I don't want to be treated cruelly, the same as anyone else.
Even if I can't bring myself to care much when it happens.
Maybe it's not so unusual. When someone is awful to me, I do get angry with them, but I don't feel surprised by it.
Even though my assumptions that people will be untrustworthy and cruel have often been incorrect... by assuming that's the norm, maybe that resignation is the same as not caring even if I do defend myself.
[maybe people like that should be at least treated with indignity for doing something worse than others do.]
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I suppose it must make you feel like a frustrating problem that we want to fix, which is not pleasant. [it admittedly doesn't sound nice, to have to deal with people's frustrations at how he reacts emotionally to his own life with his fucked up brain.]
When, really, it's not about your reaction. It's about what you think you deserve.
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... I guess I don't want to be treated cruelly, the same as anyone else.
Even if I can't bring myself to care much when it happens.
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Even though my assumptions that people will be untrustworthy and cruel have often been incorrect... by assuming that's the norm, maybe that resignation is the same as not caring even if I do defend myself.
[maybe people like that should be at least treated with indignity for doing something worse than others do.]