I'm not always proud to admit it... but I think I do want to be loved—but falling short of that, I'd like everyone to experience whatever love comes their way.
Well, not force, obviously but - I would say you're almost absurdly eligible. You haven't tried simply asking someone on a date?
[90% of this cast would say yes...]
Or is there another issue? Afraid they won't like what's past the surface? [maybe that's too personal to ask someone, but as fears go, it's certainly a common enough one. and an easily understandable one.]
yves looks a little sheepish at that, a bit embarrassed at her kindness, but he does offer a smile ]
It's nice of you to say so. But well, I've dated before... it's just never ended well.
[ he'll go to reach for one of the heart-shaped balloons just to hold it, and then acting like affection week never ended he'll hold out his hand for her so they can just walk together ]
Partly because they think they can like me, and end up afraid of or bothered by me.
[ :) affection week is every week... he looks pleased by this, expression brightening up for a moment as they walk along the market ]
I don't think I could ever be afraid of you.
[ but he'll look thoughtful for a moment before answering ]
People thought I was cursed—sometimes they still do. I was caught in a fire when I was younger, and the scar that was left behind was... strange. [ phantom of the opera ass ] And the island is already superstitious.
[superstition doesn't really surprise her, nor does cruelty. but there's something about hating a child only for having a scar that's especially awful.]
... maybe it was. But I think people do what they can to protect themselves, especially on an island where our lifespans were already so short. A cursed or possessed child could be as terrifying as a demon.
[she does think he has a backbone. i mean, he told her he died trying to kill one of his friends.]
The Sharrans don't really believe in love. [sorry.] We pledge ourselves to Shar, and consider those sorts of bonds to be a distraction from the greater purpose.
[is she though? the question just makes her look sad.]
I'm not sure it is. Or if it is, that I'm able to. [...] The reason I'm here is because I defied Shar. I became weak to the influence of other people, and I - I wanted to know about my past more than I wanted to follow her command. And I thought she would discard me for what I did, but then there were so many signs that perhaps she hadn't given up on me.
If she sees something in me worth saving after that, it's hard not to think maybe I should try harder.
She's not the only one who can see something in you worth saving. I know you've been dedicated to her your whole life, but... could you not find salvation somewhere else? In someone else? Without having to give up on connections or your answers.
[ his questions are sincere, if concerned. ]
I do think I'm biased. [ he's willing to acknowledge it ] But... I think the choice is ultimately yours, Shadowheart.
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[ without hesitation ]
I'm not always proud to admit it... but I think I do want to be loved—but falling short of that, I'd like everyone to experience whatever love comes their way.
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Living vicariously through others feels like a shame, if that's what you really want for yourself.
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It really does bring me joy.
It's not like I can force anyone to love me, after all. I'll just have to hope that maybe there's a chance for it another time, another way.
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[90% of this cast would say yes...]
Or is there another issue? Afraid they won't like what's past the surface? [maybe that's too personal to ask someone, but as fears go, it's certainly a common enough one. and an easily understandable one.]
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yves looks a little sheepish at that, a bit embarrassed at her kindness, but he does offer a smile ]
It's nice of you to say so. But well, I've dated before... it's just never ended well.
[ he'll go to reach for one of the heart-shaped balloons just to hold it, and then acting like affection week never ended he'll hold out his hand for her so they can just walk together ]
Partly because they think they can like me, and end up afraid of or bothered by me.
[ so her guess isn't wrong ]
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[she will hold hands with him yea.]
What's so frightening about you?
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I don't think I could ever be afraid of you.
[ but he'll look thoughtful for a moment before answering ]
People thought I was cursed—sometimes they still do. I was caught in a fire when I was younger, and the scar that was left behind was... strange. [ phantom of the opera ass ] And the island is already superstitious.
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[superstition doesn't really surprise her, nor does cruelty. but there's something about hating a child only for having a scar that's especially awful.]
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... maybe it was. But I think people do what they can to protect themselves, especially on an island where our lifespans were already so short. A cursed or possessed child could be as terrifying as a demon.
I try not to hold grudges.
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[there's some pretty fucking cursed children in baldur's gate so it's not out of the question.]
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Though I don't know if I've ever met a cursed child.
[ but people make wide leaps and crazy conclusions in this shitty little island ]
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[even if she can understand, she can't agree that it isn't cruel.]
I don't think there's anything frightening about you. Well... perhaps other than how easily you manage to win people over.
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Have I won you over? [ teasing ]
... if people like me, then I'm really happy about it. I decided at some point that I'd try to love everyone, after all. I hope it comes through.
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[she smiles a little, almost amused at that.]
It comes through, but I can't quite imagine that. You can't really love everyone, can you?
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[ he feels like he needs to assert this because everyone talks to him like he has a backbone of wet tissue paper ]
... but I do try. I don't want anyone to believe that they're undeserving of love.
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The Sharrans don't really believe in love. [sorry.] We pledge ourselves to Shar, and consider those sorts of bonds to be a distraction from the greater purpose.
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... can't you just... pledge yourselves to Shar together?
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No. We're meant to reject those sort of attachments, even between one another.
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Are you content with that? I guess it doesn't need to be a focus for everyone...
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[she has to think about it for a moment.]
I haven't always found it easy to follow Shar's commands. Avoiding romantic love isn't the issue, exactly, but I do get attached to people.
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... is it bad if I said that I'm glad you do? Even though I know it might make things harder...
I think it's normal to not want to be alone in life or afterlife.
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But if I want a future serving Lady Shar, I will have to find a way to change that about myself. [that is an if, though.]
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... do you think that's possible? To change that you like people. To change that those people like you, and want you to be happy without sacrifice?
[ maybe shadowheart is stronger than him - well, she definitely is. but... ]
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I'm not sure it is. Or if it is, that I'm able to. [...] The reason I'm here is because I defied Shar. I became weak to the influence of other people, and I - I wanted to know about my past more than I wanted to follow her command. And I thought she would discard me for what I did, but then there were so many signs that perhaps she hadn't given up on me.
If she sees something in me worth saving after that, it's hard not to think maybe I should try harder.
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She's not the only one who can see something in you worth saving. I know you've been dedicated to her your whole life, but... could you not find salvation somewhere else? In someone else? Without having to give up on connections or your answers.
[ his questions are sincere, if concerned. ]
I do think I'm biased. [ he's willing to acknowledge it ] But... I think the choice is ultimately yours, Shadowheart.
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