They started being nicer to me eventually... [ but. he does understand the overall point. he just huffs faintly at the question ]

You mean a Reliver... I actually wanted to, for a really long time. When you go through the process, all injuries disappear after all. I thought that was the only way I could find someone to love me.

[ even if it meant that he couldn't experience that feeling in return. maybe that was the real show of his desperation and selfishness ]

... I don't think I'd take it anymore, though.