[she has to think about it. it would be nice to say she wasn't happier, but.]

I was happier. Because I knew that Lady Shar really and truly did love me.

[at the end of the day, maybe she never disagreed. there's nothing better than knowing that you're someone capable of being loved.]

But the things I did to gain that love - I was miserable, each time. It hurt. And then after a while it stopped hurting anymore.

I hate knowing that a little. That it would have stopped hurting, eventually, if I'd kept trying.