Maybe roundabout is the better word.

[ though he looks thoughtful about it ]

I think... there's gray areas. Even though I made the decision I did, it's not like I don't have regrets for what I didn't accomplish in my life. For those I left behind.

But I think you're right that at some point, the scale has to tip on one side or the other. I didn't want to die, but I was willing to.