… I realized I get anxious, not being with the people who I selfishly think need me. Adolphe was the worst of it, but then losing Claude the way we did was hard.

[ so it was nice to be with them especially when he thinks they’re stupid (affectionate)

a beat ]

But then… when I was there, I was worried about everyone I left behind. I guess until today it felt like there was no real winning.